My mind seems to wander a lot more lately since I have gotten off
my numbing meds.
Life is constantly playing in my mind.
I overthink everything. Just ask my hubby and kids.
This last couple of weeks my mind seems to be over thinking the
passion people have for certain things in life.
I wonder why I don’t have
that passion for certain things like others. For instance people who want to be
Missionaries. A friend of mine is going to move her family to the other side of
the world. And they are so excited and passionate about it. I personally don’t get
it. But I saw it coming. The love for those Nepal kids was in her eyes the moment
I saw her on her trip and especially after her trip. I admire that kind of passion. You Go Girl! We will be praying for you and your lovely family!!
Then there are people who are passionate about working out and
eating healthy, yes not anywhere close to being Missionaries, but Gosh it takes
dedication to do that every single day of your life. They post about it on fb,
about working out, about the things they eat. I read about it as I am sipping
my Coke and munching on my M&M’s.
Just does not give me the desire to jump up and get on a tread
mill..
I know that God puts things on your heart, I know that I have
desires to do so many things, but I found myself wondering where in the heck is
my passion for “That Something..”!!!
I mean I am a wife and momma, that is what I do. I drive my hubby
and kids crazy by over doing it.
By taking care of all those details and wanting everything just
right. I am told I expect too much from my kids. I feel bad that others
actually think that. But I feel my “job” as a mom is to prepare my kids for “Real
Life”.. I don’t want them to leave my house absolutely clueless on how to do
certain things. I have babied them in some areas, but I think I keep it pretty
healthy. My boys are Juniors this year. When they go to college, you better
dang well guarantee that they will know how to take care of themselves and
their dorms. They can cook, clean, do laundry etc. And yes, we expect high
grades, I know they are capable of being the best. I feel as long as they know momma is expecting
it, then they will always work hard at giving it to me. And so far it has
worked.
They all know that half way don’t cut it. They won’t need to depend
on anyone for any of those things, and that makes me proud.
Last night, I was pondering that..
I asked God “Is that it? Being a mom and wife is what my passion
is?”
Then I woke up this morning, and all that was on my mind and in my heart
was babies..
For those that know me, know I love me some babies, and you know I
get to help with all the nurseries at church. And it occurred to me, why in the
world did I doubt that I had a passion for something.?
I love what I do at church, I love being able to minister and to
love on those itty bitty people.
I love being able to give the mommas at church peace of mind that
their babies will be cared for.
I love giving my friends on the wkends or during the wk on occasion
some alone time when I babysit for them.
I do it for my sis in law too. It’s just what I do..
My hubby and kids give me a hard time about this. But you know, it’s
my passion. I am proud of it.
And I am thankful that God has given it to me..
So I may not be a Missionary, I may not be MS Fitness Queen, but we
all are different, and God created us that way.
My kids may call me the creepy baby lady..
But, you can just call
me “The Baby Queen”.. HeeHee
P.S. Sorry some pictures are side ways, could not figure out how to turn them around..
