Awe, the rain has been refreshing for my new plants. Pretty amazing to see how God takes care of even the smallest things like the plants, and trees, and grass. And learning that, no matter what comes our way, because God loves us, we will have victory in every area of our life. Sometimes, we just have to remind ourselves of that..
*So, last Friday night, I could not sleep. I find myself hating Fridays, cause Trav works that night, and my kiddos are usually with their friends. And so it leaves me feeling petty lonely. So I spent the night flipping thru channels. And there was nothing on TV. But, something that really got my attention, was that every TV show character had a "Best Friend"
*I Love Lucy
*Hannah Montana
*I Carly
*Sex & The City
*Friends
*Grey's
*Private Practice
Get my point? And I know it is TV shows, but in my real life, I have so many wonderful friends. And different times thru out the year, I see more of them depending on whats going on in our lives. Most of my friends I met thru the kids friends. So naturally sporting events is the biggest time to mingle with them. Most of the time I can send an email, or pick up the phone and have some one there to listen to me. I used to focus so much on having the "Best Friend". But my Pastor said once, that we are grown ups, and not in high school, so basically our spouses should be that best friend. And Trav is great. He is a good listener, and is very faithful and understanding to my feelings and desires. But of course with his night time job, it makes it hard to have him there all the time.
But ya know, I miss being "the one".. Does that make sense? In high school, I had an amazing Best Friend. Even after we both had babies and got married, we spent almost every wkend together. Had dinner at each others houses, shopping together, our kids played with each other all the time. When something terrible happened, I was the first one she called. And of course when something wonderful happened, I was the first person she called. But, because the life styles changed, the relationship changed. And it was very difficult to understand why things had to change. We just grew apart. Now I know, that I was growing in my faith, and my walk with Jesus, and I could not allow anything to hold me back. Today, I have many amazing women in my life, relationships that I take very seriously. And most of those friends already have "the one" they consider the Best Friend. But, a part of me misses having "the one" friendship. I just desire to have that companion ship with a person, who thinks about me. Who wants to see me often. Who will call me up on the phone, just to see what's going on. And not just about me, but for me to able to do the same for them. The problem we always seem to run into, is we are so busy. Just being a mommy takes allot of time away. We all have different schedules, different living situations. Especially me, who does not like to be on the phone. lol But, you know the difference for me now. Is, I don't "need" a best friend anymore. I "desire" to have one. To me that is a big difference. I know, that as I get older, I will meet more people. And that my relationships will change, some. But, I am looking forward to God bringing me that "desired friendship". And I am so ready!
