Monday, September 24, 2012

Week 3 Insecurity...


Ugh, I so wish I could say I enjoyed this next chapter. But I have to be transparent and say, it stepped all over my toes.
This chapter was called “She Does Not Look a Certain Way”

You see, one thing as a mother, when my children have come home and were beat down or discouraged, and decided they literally disliked a classmate. I would sit them down, and say, ok, you realize when you don’t like someone; it is because somewhere deep down you are jealous of what they have that you don’t. And about 80% of the time I was right, they either had more money, nicer clothes, shoes, more friends etc..
And it showed my children that they were wrong in their thinking and had to make a decision to like everyone,,
You see I am great at giving advice, it is just taking it in for myself where I struggle. Lol

This chapter reminded me of that. I never wanted to admit I was the jealous type. Although my husband and the close friends I have had in and out of my life know the truth about me..
Of course some of the things that Beth Moore shared in this chapter, reminded me a lot of what I have been told..
Example:
“ What on earth do you have to be insecure about? You have everything! Nope, Actually nobody has everything. Beware of Appearances.”
OR
“A lot of people like you, and you have a lot of good friends”
OR
“ Wow you have been married for a long time, you must have this marriage thing down easy”

You see we all have different definitions on what certain things are in our life. We come to expect our family and friends to treat us a certain way. We think we deserved to be treated and wanted a certain way, but it is so unfair to those people in our life,..

“ No person on earth can love you perfectly enough to mend a tear in the crimson fabric of your soul. “

We all (ME) spend so much time judging and thinking a certain someone has everything and is so secure, and if I only had this or that, I too would be so happy and secure.. Not knowing we have no clue what other people struggle with..

“ Be careful who you covet. Be careful how you judge. Be slow to size somebody up and think you know all about her type. She’s not so different from you. Nobody’s unbreakable here on this planet. Only the dead don’t bleed when they’re cut. We all fear that we are not who were pretending to be.”

I have had to do a lot of talking to and praying to God and myself, to help me to quit being so judgmental towards people that I have no clue what they are going thru.

I encourage all of my blog followers to seek God in that area too.

“You and I are going to have to come to a place where we stop handing people the kind of power only God should wield over us. Change will not come easy, Old habits die hard. But we can make the radical decision to rewire our security systems”


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