Of course I don’t want to let you down..
The 2nd chapter was tough one to read..
But it is kind of amusing when I am reading this, and am saying “Yes!” “Exactly!” “Finally someone who understands!”
Than I realize what a huge nut I am..lol
Reading this book like I said has opened my eyes in many areas. I never doubted I was insecure, but I always pretended I was not as messed up as I am. Let me share some of the things that stood out to me..
First of all the chapter is called “Insecure Enough to Matter”
Insecurity refers to a profound sense of self doubt, a deep feeling of uncertainty about our basic worth and our place in the world, along with a chronic lack of confidence in ourselves and anxiety about our relationships. We live in constant fear of rejection and a deep uncertainty about whether his or her own feelings and desires are legitimate?
Of course I translated that to Basic English terms that say “We worry, do “We” really matter..
She also says “The insecure person also harbors unrealistic expectations about love and relationships. This person creates a situation in which being disappointed and hurt in relationships is almost inevitable.
I had a convo with my husband. We talked about feeling secure in different areas. One thing I admire about him is if he finds out someone is upset with him, whether it be family, friends, co workers. He has the attitude, of “Oh Well, they will get over it”
Ohhh how I desire that attitude.. Me on the other hand, when I even think someone is upset with me, I literally freak out, and play things in my head, and wonder how I could of said something better, and how can I approach them to make it all better. I let it eat away at me.
Or how about when we expect too much from one person? And they get tired of trying to convince me they are fine and not mad or upset with me, that the relationship comes to an end..
It is heart breaking for me..
Than of course the big thing that hit me between the eyes is something she also said..
“She realized that she not only lacks security, but that she lacked Faith..” Big Ouchy!!
Now, I don’t know about any one you blog followers, but I am just plain exhausted..
If only I could see myself the way God see’s me, and the way God created me to be, and keep my head up knowing without a doubt, that I do have a real purpose on this stinking earth..
No matter the mistakes WE all have made.. God still loves ME! He still loves YOU!
His Love should make everyone of us feel secure..
NOW That is something we should get excited about..
