Just Sitting back,.Being very quiet,..
Watching Everyone and Everything around me has really given me a new insight on life.
Have to shamefully admit I have always been a fan of Karma, but I have to swallow my pride and admit that I am being given a big ole dose of Karma..
For years, I have been part of choosing sides and thinking I was better off if I just left certain people out of my life. Probably during times they were not doing things or living their life to what I thought was best. Have had blown up arguments over politics, religion, and what I thought someone really meant to say or do.
Walking around pointing my fingers and judging people, and making them feel like they were probably alone.
I am sure I have made God oh so proud… (sigh)
Oh my the tables have turned, and now it is my turn to be judged, and let me tell you it totally stinks and is heartbreaking.. But with time I have gotten over myself and quit throwing a woe is me party. And have spent the last couple of weeks feeling remorse for being such a big ole bitty to certain people in my life.
The crazy thing is there have been a handful of people who have stepped up and been there for me the last couple of months.. These people have every right to dislike me, because when the tables were turned, I was a horrible person to them, and I shut them out of my life. And I have told them, that I surely don’t deserve their friendship. But they have all said the same thing to me, yeah I did hurt them, but they know my true heart, and they remember what a devoted friend I was to them over all.
How about that.. People who concentrate and remember all the good, and who don’t focus on the bad.
If they only knew how much my heart needed to hear that.. Sowing and Reaping.. Karma..
This adventure and realitly of life has really given me the desire to be the light for people.
I want to shine for those who are going thru a dark time in their life.
For the people who are beat down, and have no hope, I want to be that email, or text or phone call that says, yeah your situation stinks big time, but you got this.
God is good, and he believes in restoring relationships, and lives.
His grace and mercy has saved me.. And I am thankful for the trials and judgment in life to make me realize that I had and have issues, but I am still precious and loved.
Most of all, that I deserve to be happy and to be surrounded by people who love me too..
So, LOVE!!! It should be simple.
Yet, we complicate everything. For example: we are not commanded to judge other people, gossip about them, tell everyone else what so-and-so ought to do about the problems we see in them, decide whether or not they are worthy for "certain" blessings or condemn them to a life of suffering and sorrow.
I'm so glad I don't have to make any final judgments about anyone. I just get to love them like crazy, for who they are now..
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
― Lao Tzu
“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.”
― Oprah Winfrey
P.S.
Happy 16th Anniversary to my Amazing and Loving Husband.. The man that has reminded me what Real, Faithful, Love really is..And how blessed I am that God sent him my way..
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| 16th Anniversary in Oklahoma City |
