Oh Young Love..

During my FB Fast this wk, I have had time to do a little blogging..

I may have mentioned that my Twins are Seniors this year. We are getting ready for Senior Pics and looking for pictures for the baby ad page for year book.

I am having to come up with some kind of message to put with these pictures, so needless to say I have been a bit of a boob bag. How does a mom choose which pictures from the last 17 years, they are all my favorites. Sigh..

AS our summer is coming to an end it has been quite enjoyable and we have experienced some technical difficulties.

It was no secret if you followed us on FB that my son had a girlfriend. Well after some decisions that came to an end. Of course I could be hateful and blast my blog and other social media outlets about my thoughts on how hurt my baby boy was. It was his first young love.  But I told my son not to respond to it on social media and just let is play out. And I was proud of him for doing as I asked. So of course I have to follow the same rules. But honestly I have nothing bad to say. Why, because I still love and care for her. She was a big great part of our family for almost 2 years. I have pictures that I will not delete. I have memories of some good times. And yeah Jazzy and I have actually shed some tears because we miss having her around. 

But I am proud of my son for choosing to be a teen. And not getting so serious so fast.

I have found that many young teens are in such a rush to get so serious, when I have tried to show  my kids they have plenty of time for all that. But now is the time to chase their dreams, and to set goals and reach those goals. Yes I was very young when I got so serious. And yes we are still together. But there have been many tears and heartaches to stay together. The odds were stacked against us. But we came out swinging. And I don’t want that for my children.

Yes I don’t like to see the young ones so heart broken. But I promise each of yall “This too shall Pass” and who knows what the future holds.

Just enjoy life right now, you have plenty of time for all the other stuff. Like AFTER college. heehee 

My Trav..

18 years ago..

Trav and I started watching a TV series that Jazz and Ci have been watching.. 

One of the characters who is really hot by the way, is seeing an older man. And she got jealous very easily over some silly things and started to cause a scene.

 I am sitting there watching and I start to giggle because that was me not too long ago. Because of the age difference we have and because of my lack of confidence and knowledge of dating that I have, I have put my husband thru so much crap. Silly crap. Because I was insecure.. I mean really silly crap that no one should have to deal with.

Thru out the last 18 years of our marriage, I have had people plant seed in my head which added to my fears. Whether it was the Sappy Romance novels I read, TV shows I watched or people in my life who had bad experiences with marriage. And unfortunately I let it grow and grow and believed it.

 But, no matter the fits I threw. No matter my fears and childish ways.. My bad attitude or choices that I made. He never failed me. Over and over he had to reassure me that his love is real. That I am the one and only for him. Thru my thin to my thickness, he stood by me. Never put me down. Each time I wanted to quit, he refused. He encouraged me and lifted me up and supported me. He fought for both of us at times, taught me that what we have was worth fighting for.

Today I can say that our marriage is stronger than it has ever been.

 I see him and US thru a different perspective. 

I appreciate him and understand him so much more..

And oh how I thank God for that, for HIM..

In the nursery I had the privilege in talking with one of my dear friend's Susie McKinney. A faithful woman full of joy, love and knowledge. We talked about our children and relationships and she said that any two people can get married. But it takes an act of God and working together to stay married.

Today I find myself praying stronger for my children.

I pray they find their very own “Travis”.. 

Summer 2014..

Most nights when I lay in bed I start thinking about different topics for my blog. I swear one day I am going to keep a pen and paper by my bed so I can write those things down, because once I wake up I cannot remember those topics, and there were some really good ones too! I think..

So unfortunately I have nothing brilliant to share with you all.

But here just a quick update on life..

Jazz and Kear in Georgetown

Summer is going, nothing exciting after our trip to Georgetown. Our fellas went to a basketball camp and we decided it being their Senior year to go up and watch the last couple of days. SO we loaded up the blue beast and Trav, me, Jazz and Kear enjoyed the drive there. We watched lots and lots of games for two days. They played against bigger schools, and because our posts were at 7 on 7 games we got beat, but not badly. So needless to say, I am super excited about our basketball season this year, I think it’s going to be a group of talented young men.

My Life Time Friend Paula

I got to join my sweet and amazing life time friends Paula and Mike for a dinner before Paula left me to go to Missouri again. Met both of these people when I started working at my job 11 years ago, and even though we have not worked at the same place we have kept a strong friendship over the years. And I have to say I am Thankful that God brought those people in my life and love them both to the moon and back. I miss my Paula but I am so happy for her what God is doing in her life..

All American Cheerleaders

My Jazz had cheer camp already, and if you follow me on FB you know she got All American Cheerleader, which means she gets to go be in the parade in Houston on Thanksgiving. We are so proud of her hard work, and I look forward to watching her cheer this year,. AND already praying her bases do not drop her this year! Congrats to all the young ladies who made All American this year!

And now for my final thoughts.. I know some people think I am silly.. 

But I am in denial about all this Senior stuff. I am excited, really I am. I look forward to my itty bitty boys to go to college and to go out in the real world and experience life, and see all that God has in store for them.

How I will always see my Boys

But gah!! Every time this momma thinks about them leaving, them not being here at home with me. Them making me laugh, the talks we have over dinner. Just the joy their presence brings me each day.  I start tearing up. And my stomach gets kind of nauseated. It’s really ridiculous. And I know this already. But someone please tell my heart and mind to get over it!

Cam and Aaron ready for Senior Year

So all that to warn you, if and when you ask or have asked me if it’s the boys senior year, or if I am going to miss them. Just know there will be tears.. 

And by this time next year, there will be the ugly cry. 

You know the one with snot and all that fun stuff.