Life in HammettVille

Last night as I was losing feeling in my fingers and kept wiping my nose from drip age because it was so darn cold, I kept going back and forth in my head which season I disliked the most Track Season or Cross Country Season.. Don’t get me wrong, I love love love watching my kids run, but gosh it is a long day and absolutely miserable if it is too hot or too cold.. But I can gripe as much as I want, I still will be there cheering them on..

After my rant on fb the other day about boys being boring for prom, I am happy to say that not only is my Cameron going with a date, but they agreed to take pictures where I wanted.. whoohoo!

I am getting a sweet taste of what it will be like to have grandchildren..

 And one thing is I am losing my desire to have more children of my own, because this Nana thing is so much sweeter.. Heehee

Trav is loving his new job, it is amazing how much a person’s entire outlook and attitude on life changes when he is working somewhere that brings him joy. No more long drive to DFW in traffic, and no more on call 24 hours a day and getting those 2 am phone calls because his co-workers were clueless on how to do trouble shoot on their own..

My boys are 17.. Let me say that again.. My boys are 17!!!! Nope I still cringe when I say that out loud.. sigh

My baby girl made the Cheer leading Squad for 8^th grade. We are so proud of her.. Cookie Dough sales coming soon.

Had some blood test and MRI on my cabeza, good news is there were no blockages or tumors..

Bad news is I have migraines more frequently and no known cause.. Boo

We bought a Jetta for those boys of ours. It reminds me of how nervous I used to be when Ciera started driving on her own.. We gave it to them the day before their birthday. We surprised them after the track meet, it was so exciting and I was so emotional. Have to say that Jazz and I have too much room in the SUV, so I am thinking a Audi Convertible in our near future.

Trav and I have been using the snow ball thingie on paying off debt. I am happy to say that in the last 5 months we have paid off 4 major bills. Woot Woot

Did I mention my twin fellas turned 17?! We decided no party this year since we had the big bang for the 16^th birthday. But what was supposed to be having a couple of friends turned into having a house full.. Which brought me pure joy that the boys have some good friends like that. Making memories that will last a life time..

My Passion??

My mind seems to wander a lot more lately since I have gotten off my numbing meds.

Life is constantly playing in my mind.

I overthink everything. Just ask my hubby and kids.

This last couple of weeks my mind seems to be over thinking the passion people have for certain things in life.

 I wonder why I don’t have that passion for certain things like others. For instance people who want to be Missionaries. A friend of mine is going to move her family to the other side of the world. And they are so excited and passionate about it. I personally don’t get it. But I saw it coming. The love for those Nepal kids was in her eyes the moment I saw her on her trip and especially after her trip. I admire that kind of passion. You Go Girl! We will be praying for you and your lovely family!!

Then there are people who are passionate about working out and eating healthy, yes not anywhere close to being Missionaries, but Gosh it takes dedication to do that every single day of your life. They post about it on fb, about working out, about the things they eat. I read about it as I am sipping my Coke and munching on my M&M’s.

Just does not give me the desire to jump up and get on a tread mill..

I know that God puts things on your heart, I know that I have desires to do so many things, but I found myself wondering where in the heck is my passion for “That Something..”!!!

I mean I am a wife and momma, that is what I do. I drive my hubby and kids crazy by over doing it.

By taking care of all those details and wanting everything just right. I am told I expect too much from my kids. I feel bad that others actually think that. But I feel my “job” as a mom is to prepare my kids for “Real Life”.. I don’t want them to leave my house absolutely clueless on how to do certain things. I have babied them in some areas, but I think I keep it pretty healthy. My boys are Juniors this year. When they go to college, you better dang well guarantee that they will know how to take care of themselves and their dorms. They can cook, clean, do laundry etc. And yes, we expect high grades, I know they are capable of being the best.  I feel as long as they know momma is expecting it, then they will always work hard at giving it to me. And so far it has worked.

They all know that half way don’t cut it. They won’t need to depend on anyone for any of those things, and that makes me proud.

Last night, I was pondering that..

I asked God “Is that it? Being a mom and wife is what my passion is?”

Then I woke up this morning, and all that was on my mind and in my heart was babies.. 

For those that know me, know I love me some babies, and you know I get to help with all the nurseries at church. And it occurred to me, why in the world did I doubt that I had a passion for something.? 

 I love what I do at church, I love being able to minister and to love on those itty bitty people.

I love being able to give the mommas at church peace of mind that their babies will be cared for. 

  I love giving my friends on the wkends or during the wk on occasion some alone time when I babysit for them. 

 I do it for my sis in law too. It’s just what I do..

My hubby and kids give me a hard time about this. But you know, it’s my passion.  I am proud of it. 

And I am thankful that God has given it to me..

So I may not be a Missionary, I may not be MS Fitness Queen, but we all are different, and God created us that way. 

My kids may call me the creepy baby lady.. 

But, you can just call me “The Baby Queen”..  HeeHee

P.S. Sorry some pictures are side ways, could not figure out how to turn them around.. 

Permission to Brag..

SO much I want to shout and brag about in my life, but trying my best to bring it down a notch..
But, I have permission to share this tad bit..
I just love being a momma. I am getting to see what years of being on my knees and praying, (maybe some begging and crying was included). As I talked with God about so many worries I had for my babies. Thankful for some good friends in my life during that time, that would tell me to be patient, to keep praying and have faith that God would take care of those babies of mine. (shout out to my gorgeous friend Crystil, who was my biggest encourager)

 I have watched my baby get hurt over and over, and for the life of me I did not understand why?
She is a dang good girl, with a huge heart, and so darn passionate. Yes feisty chick, but overall I call it being passionate about right and wrong. Not to mention drop dead gorgeous.. There were a couple of times, I thought I was going to have to get bailed out of jail because I wanted to take care of things on my own. But I don’t look good in orange. heehee

And now, I am seeing it all come together.
My girl is finally seeing all the things her daddy and I have told her about. A guy in her life that treats her like the princess she deserves to be treated like. My girl has her smile back. She is glowing with happiness and it makes this momma’s heart so happy..
So I encourage the momma’s out there, not to lose hope and to keep standing on your faith.

He hears your cries, hears your prayers, and he Loves you and your babies more than you can even imagine.. Always remind yourself of that..
Psalms 40:3
He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed.They will put their trust in the Lord.