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| 18 years ago.. |
Trav and I started watching a TV series that Jazz and Ci
have been watching..
One of the characters who is really hot by the way, is seeing an older man. And she got
jealous very easily over some silly things and started to cause a scene.
I am
sitting there watching and I start to giggle because that was me not too long
ago. Because of the age difference we have and because of my lack of confidence
and knowledge of dating that I have, I have put my husband thru so much crap.
Silly crap. Because I was insecure.. I mean really silly crap that no one
should have to deal with.
Thru out the last 18 years of our marriage, I have had
people plant seed in my head which added to my fears. Whether it was the Sappy Romance novels I read, TV shows I watched or people in my life who had bad experiences with marriage. And unfortunately I
let it grow and grow and believed it.
But, no matter the fits I threw. No matter
my fears and childish ways.. My bad attitude or choices that I made. He never
failed me. Over and over he had to reassure me that his love is real. That I am
the one and only for him. Thru my thin to my thickness, he stood by me. Never
put me down. Each time I wanted to quit, he refused. He encouraged me and
lifted me up and supported me. He fought for both of us at times, taught me that what we
have was worth fighting for.
Today I can say that our marriage is stronger than it has
ever been.
I see him and US thru a different perspective.
I appreciate him and
understand him so much more..
And oh how I thank God for that, for HIM..
In the nursery I had the privilege in talking with one of my
dear friend's Susie McKinney. A faithful woman full of joy, love and knowledge.
We talked about our children and relationships and she said that any two people
can get married. But it takes an act of God and working together to stay
married.
Today I find myself praying stronger for my children.
I pray they find their very own “Travis”..
