Why I LOOOOVE him..

Sitting in bed last night, watching the Rangers game, and listening to my husband on the phone with one of his co workers. Jazzy girl crawls in the bed and on top of me and Trav and is trying to squeeze in between us. And Trav and I unite and don’t let her break us up.. Of course this starts a giggle fest that leads to tickles until we give up and she gets in between us. I watch as she cuddles up with her daddy. And I am reminded of what an amazing man I have married.
I am sure I have gone on and on about my kiddos and friends. But I don’t think I have ever went on and on about my husband. First of all, I know most of you will find this hard to believe, but I am not an easy person to be married to. I am spoiled, and stubborn, and can be known to throw a fit when I don’t get my way. Yes, Yes, I know, I know.. You all are in shock,.. So this is a compiled list of why I love and am blessed to call Trav my husband for over 15 years..

• For knocking me up with the most precious twin boys ever!! LOL

• For NOT running for the hills when you found out we were having TWINS!

• For never judging me or leaving me after he met my family.

• For working a full time job, and still coming home and waking up when his baby on his side of the bed woke up in the middle of the night

• For singing me the “Ant” song just to make me smile

• For forcing me to the dentist to get my cavities filled and holding my hand when I was terrified.

• For allowing me to stay up his butt the first 5 years of marriage when I could not get enough of him

• For working a full time job, and coming home and being Mr Mom to Ci and the boys while I went to college at night for 18 months. And NEVER complaining!

• For teaching me to drive and forcing me to get my drivers license!

• For Jazzy Girl..

• For working MANY horrible jobs with long hours, and dealing with crappy bosses, and not getting to see us but once a week, and never complaining..

• For going above and beyond to make sure your 4 kiddos know they are loved, and well taken care of.

• For teaching all of us, to have a sense of humor. And to learn to laugh at ourselves.

• For singing and dancing in the car, especially when the kids have company.

• For taking care of all the bills, so that I don’t have a worry in the world.

• For supporting my shoe fetish.

• For the many nights of cereal for dinner.

• For knowing how to comfort me.

• For pretending you are listening when I go on and on and on about how someone hurt my feelings.

• For always being able to cook, clean and do laundry WAY better than I could ever do.

• For not punching me in the face when I fight dirty.

• For thinking I am still pretty dang hot, even after I gained the 130 pounds!!!

• For always being my own Mr. Fixit, whether it was in the house, or my personal emotions.

• For Never getting jealous of my Romo Fetish..

• For knowing how to give me directions without using the “North, South” crap, and instead using Passed the” Wal-Mart and Kohl’s on your left.”

• For being a fine God Fearing, praying, loving man of God..

• For LOVING MEEEEE!!!!

• For not ever giving up on US or me or quitting when I was ready to throw in the towel.

• For showing me, that having a good attitude thru a crappy situation does pay off in the end…

It is because of Trav’s good attitude at his last job, that showed another person how great of a guy he was, that lead to him being called and offered a job that has him working days, and after only about 6 months, he is now the Boss and will be still working days, with Friday, Saturday, Sunday off..

Yep! My husband is pretty dang amazing… And this is why I LOOOOVE him..

They are WATCHING!!

Please keep your focus, as I let my mind explain what my thoughts have been lately...
A few months back, I heard a teaching that was taught on attitude. He made the comment on how our children act. He said that he looks at parents when they say “Gosh, I don’t know why my kid whines soooo much, it just drives meeee crazy!” And he wants to tell that parent, “umm I wonder where they get it from, hmm?” It kind of made me giggle, but than reminded me that these little people watch our every move. And they grow up to act like us, and pick up certain habits. Uh Oh!

My last blog I talked about my son, who got so down on himself, because he did not beat his personal best at the two mile at District. *(He did make his personal best at the 1 mile at District that following Thursday Toot Toot!!) Anyways, one of my dear honest friends commented about how he is acting like me with a low self esteem. Yeah that was an OUCH, but she is speaking truth. And I love her for that! I love my children; I am sure if you are a mom you love your babies and would do anything for them. Well, I am learning “THAT SOMETHING” has to include the way we act, talk and especially the way we treat people. If you lose your temper, cuss, gossip, lie or back out on plans you have made, than your kids will see that, and think it is ok to do too! If you put yourself down and constantly whine and complain, but don’t do anything to make it better, than your kids will do the same. I personally don’t want my kids to have the struggles I have had in life. I am far from perfect, but I don’t think it is ever too late to make changes NOW!

Those Little People that call you MOM and DAD, are watching and listening…
NEXT….


This morning on the way to work, I was annoyed with the way my kiddos had been acting the last couple of days, just fighting with each other, and complaining about their bodies. (Yes, I know, I know) Anyways, we were listening to the radio, about a young fella who just received a double lung transplant; they said before the transplant, that he could only say a couple of words before he had to gasp for his next breath.
He will be 15 next month. I turned the radio down, and I told the kids they really needed to realize just how blessed they are.
To be healthy enough to run the way they do and to not worry if they were going to be able to breath. They both just shook their head,..
It is stories like that, that have me Thanking God daily for healthy children. AND Thanking God for Amazing Medical Discoveries..

Good Enough...

Being a momma is one of the best things in my life. Have had the privilege of being in this role since I got married almost 16 years ago. Since Trav came with Ciera..

But when I gave birth to my twin fellas,.. When I heard their first cry, and held them for the first time, it hit me smack in the face.. That these two little precious boys were going to be my responsibility. To make sure they were cared for, loved beyond a shadow of a doubt, and that they always knew how special they are..
I realized they were going to depend on me for everything.
Oh, the joy these boys have brought into my life.

I will admit, the day the doc told us we were having twins, I cried. Lol I personally was not ready for one baby more less two of them at the same time.
But the good Lord always gave me the strength and the back up help to handle what ever came my way.

As everyone knows, my fellas are 15 now. And one of the toughest things for me as a mom is to not be able to make things all better for them. Yes, I am one of those moms, and I have gotten a lot better..
Well maybe just a tad bit.. Hee Hee
My boys are momma’s boys. And of course my husband rags on them for being that, even though he is a big momma’s boy too.
That’s right; there is nothing wrong with boys loving their momma.

One of my fellas.. (I won’t say which one) Is and always has been a “Go Getter”..
He loves to be the center of attention. From dancing, to telling jokes, to making VDO's
He will be the first to volunteer to be part of something. He always has gone out of his way to be the best at everything he could be. And I will even say he has succeeded in many areas.
Of course I have told him, he is good looking and smart, super funny and one day “The Ladies” will see him like good “boyfriend” material, instead of like ”brother” material.

But thanks to Pastor James and one of his teachings, he says I only say that because he has favor with me. Lol
Now of course he does have favor with me, and I will always be his biggest cheerleader.
But, as a mother, I find it heartbreaking to watch my child struggle with himself. To watch him be disappointed that he did not meet a big goal, or that he was not the best at something. I dislike seeing him discouraged.

They made Varsity this year as freshmen on the cross country and track team. They have been working so hard to meet their goals, and they both have passed what they wanted. Trav and I are so very proud of their hard work and dedication they have shown. But my fella acts like he was not good enough.
SERIOUSLY! They are running against Juniors, Sophomores and Seniors.
His best 2 mile run has been 11.33 His goal for the year was to beat 12.00
Someone please tell him, this is AMAZING!!!
At district yesterday, the guy who got first place on the JV team, ran a 12.30 something. If my boys had run with JV they would have gotten 1st and 2nd place. The boys’ coaches even told the boys how proud they were. One of the boys knew his time was not his best, but he was satisfied with his effort. But of course the other one was totally bummed out.

 This morning, I dropped him off at school, with no smile on his face. Which is very rare for him. I wanted to jump out of the car, and climb on the hood and tell him,..
I think he is amazing!  To cheer up! To put a smile on his face! To hold his head up high!
Because he has improved so much this year.
But, because he would have hated me for causing such a scene, I quietly drove away.
Sigh….
So blog followers and fellow moms.. This momma’s heart is heavy. How do I convince my son, that he did not let anyone down? That he is good enough. And that he cannot give up..