Lazy Days of Summer

Just one more month, and the kiddos all get back to school. I think they are more than ready to go back. I am nervous for my twins, cause they go to Middle School. Big time 7th graders, watch out now! Jazzy will be the oldest at the Elementary school this year. She is excited about that. So far the kids have just been having friends over and going over to friends houses to keep entertained. My oldest Ciera moved out this week, so we were able to move the boys into their own rooms. But they can't seem to stay away from each other, you always find them in one of the rooms together. I wondered how they would act when we did it. The boys are old enough now to attend the Youth Group at our church. And they are having so much fun! They are growing too fast for my liking. But, what can you do? We are all excited for vacation, it will be short one, but still allot of fun. Over the last couple of months, I have taken on a kind of 2nd job, just to make some extra money, and it helps out the church. With that extra money we have been able to do small projects around the house. The pictures are what we have accomplished so far. We have so much more we want to do, but it just takes some time to save up. We are very proud of the hard work and money we have put into it so far. So be sure to stop by and take a look! Also, Saturday I am having my Pampered Chef Party, so if you did not get an invite, it is only cause I did not have your e-mail address. So just get with me, or just show up. The more the merrier..

Just a couple of count downs, I am doing..

* 14 days till my big 30 b-day!

* 15 days till Vacation.

*31 days till the 1st day of school.

*119 Days till Twilight New Moon comes to the movies.

*119 days till Trav and I celebrate our 13th wedding anniversary!

Have a Fabulous wkend!

Best Friends

Awe, the rain has been refreshing for my new plants. Pretty amazing to see how God takes care of even the smallest things like the plants, and trees, and grass. And learning that, no matter what comes our way, because God loves us, we will have victory in every area of our life. Sometimes, we just have to remind ourselves of that..

*So, last Friday night, I could not sleep. I find myself hating Fridays, cause Trav works that night, and my kiddos are usually with their friends. And so it leaves me feeling petty lonely. So I spent the night flipping thru channels. And there was nothing on TV. But, something that really got my attention, was that every TV show character had a "Best Friend"

*I Love Lucy

*Hannah Montana

*I Carly

*Sex & The City

*Friends

*Grey's

*Private Practice

Get my point? And I know it is TV shows, but in my real life, I have so many wonderful friends. And different times thru out the year, I see more of them depending on whats going on in our lives. Most of my friends I met thru the kids friends. So naturally sporting events is the biggest time to mingle with them. Most of the time I can send an email, or pick up the phone and have some one there to listen to me. I used to focus so much on having the "Best Friend". But my Pastor said once, that we are grown ups, and not in high school, so basically our spouses should be that best friend. And Trav is great. He is a good listener, and is very faithful and understanding to my feelings and desires. But of course with his night time job, it makes it hard to have him there all the time.

But ya know, I miss being "the one".. Does that make sense? In high school, I had an amazing Best Friend. Even after we both had babies and got married, we spent almost every wkend together. Had dinner at each others houses, shopping together, our kids played with each other all the time. When something terrible happened, I was the first one she called. And of course when something wonderful happened, I was the first person she called. But, because the life styles changed, the relationship changed. And it was very difficult to understand why things had to change. We just grew apart. Now I know, that I was growing in my faith, and my walk with Jesus, and I could not allow anything to hold me back. Today, I have many amazing women in my life, relationships that I take very seriously. And most of those friends already have "the one" they consider the Best Friend. But, a part of me misses having "the one" friendship. I just desire to have that companion ship with a person, who thinks about me. Who wants to see me often. Who will call me up on the phone, just to see what's going on. And not just about me, but for me to able to do the same for them. The problem we always seem to run into, is we are so busy. Just being a mommy takes allot of time away. We all have different schedules, different living situations. Especially me, who does not like to be on the phone. lol But, you know the difference for me now. Is, I don't "need" a best friend anymore. I "desire" to have one. To me that is a big difference. I know, that as I get older, I will meet more people. And that my relationships will change, some. But, I am looking forward to God bringing me that "desired friendship". And I am so ready!

Goofy days..

Hello everyone. Follow along..

*Whew, this heat is something else. I think we are getting a cold front on Friday, high is supposed to be 92, we are pretty messed up when we call that a cold front.

*Finally went to Sam Moon for the 1st time. Loved that place, but my husband called it female hell. It was pretty crazy, but the ladies were kind if they ran you over. lol I got a purse and some sun glasses for under 30 bucks!

*I miss my long hair. But the picture reminds me of how Romo is officially single now. Maybe he can give 100% to the team now.

*There is never a dull moment in my house. As you can tell from the pictures my kiddos keep me laughing.

*I really do feel bad for the parents who are divorced and have to miss a month at a time with their kiddos. I think I would go crazy if I had to do that. My boys have trouble every summer inviting their friends over, cause they are at the "dads" house for the month. Bummer.

*Even though I am the biggest violator if this, I find it some how amusing, how soon we jump to conclusions about how someone has treated us. Communication is very important in every relationship. I have found so many times, the other person really had no clue where I got my idea from. I think this just shows my brain thinks too much.

*Still reading the book "Hello my name is God" and learning allot. One of the things, is how we treat people shows what's in our heart. And that God gives us mercy. And we should do the same to people, especially family and friends. Cause holding on to bitterness and resentment will hurt you more than you think.

*I am so ready for vacation. Only 23 days and counting..

*And the big 30 is only 22 days away! So excited.

Well, it is the wkend again! And it is a HOT one! So hot that I chopped off my long curly hair. Never have had it this short before. I think it ended up shorter than I planned. But getting lots of compliments. That is always a plus. The week was a long one for me. But once I quit putting so much effort in being so unhappy, it got better. Have you ever noticed, how having a bad attitude affects your life period? I swore I was having a hard time finding anything good in my life. And I think about it, and that was pretty stupid on my part. I guess each day we have to make a choice, to either have a good day no matter what, or to sulk and be negative. And sometimes it is easier to be negative, but choosing the other, has so much better results. I have started reading this book called "Hello my name is God" and I find myself having a hard time putting it down. It's pretty funny too. I highly recommend it. My wkend starts with a slumber party for Jazzy, she has invited 4 other girls over, and we will be swimming, watching movies, and eating all night. She has been super excited. I just hope they all get along. Just a few thoughts I would like to share..

*Even, though I was not a huge fan of Jackson, he sure has taken up allot of my TV time, and taken allot of attention away from Jon and Kate, who I am a big fan of.

*We started picking our tomatoes this week, but by the time they get to be red, they get squishy and go bad. Sure would like to know what we are doing wrong?

*Having twin 12 year old boys, has been so much fun. But, I did not know that boys attitudes could be as nasty as a girls. The eye rolling, and talking back, and the slight stomping, is going to push my patience to its limit, than will have to start the beat down. Something I am not looking forward to.

*Told my Jazzy last night, that I sure want another baby, after a quick thought, she informed me she likes being the baby, and wants it to stay that way.

*Was doing so good there for a while working out during my lunch, but it seems if I don't start my week off with exercise, than the whole week is shot. I want to be one of those people who can get up an hour early and use the fancy machine I had to have. I wonder what that would take to accomplish.hmm?

Well, have an enjoyable wkend, and stay cool!

Big steps..

So, if you follow me on facebook. You will see my "status" being pretty depressed. And I think people were starting to really worry about me. Yes, I think I did hit rock bottom. In my mind I did. Dealing with rejection is really tough. And I think that so many of us deals with some type of rejection in our lives. Starting from child hood, I can remember dealing with stuff, that a child should not have dealt with. Being raised in an environment that was not always so loving, no compassion, just so full of strife. And than to grow up and still see it. To see how it can really ruin a person, and make you pretty bitter and just a miserable person to be around. And I think that is where I was headed. But because of my relationship with God, and because I have sown some good seed in people's lives, it helped me to get out of my funk. I refuse to live like that, to be so full of negative energy, and let what people think control how I live. Instead of focusing on all the things wrong in my life, I have to count my blessings for all the things right in my life. So after fighting a terrible migraine yesterday, I got up, and my kids wanted to get some dinner. We went to the best place on earth "El Paseo", and we had a good time. My twins have the silliest jokes, and make me laugh so hard. And Jazzy is just so freaking sweet, and showered me with hugs and kisses. And I stopped and thought right there at life. And I saw those little faces, and realized that those were why I get out of bed each morning. God gave me those little people as a gift, and to take away all the pain I have endured in my life. And now it is my job to be the best mommy, and to always make sure they know how much God loves them, and how much I love them. So I tell you all that, to say..I know we all did not have the best child hood. And it was not fair. But we made it thru guys! And we are here now, and we have a good thing going. And so we have to get up off the ground, dust ourselves off, leave the past in the past. And live life! To expect nothing, and be grateful for everything..

One of the scriptures to help me thru this time in my life is this one..

Psalms 61:1-4
Hear my cry, God. Listen to my prayer. From the end of the earth, I will call to you, when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
For you have been a refuge for me, A strong tower from the enemy. I will dwell in your tent forever. I will take refuge in the shelter of your wings. Selah.

The simple things..

You know, I find myself getting so caught up in the "drama", the he said she said, or the "what in the world just happened"? That I am just exhausted. My heart is overwhelmed, and it makes me have to say, enough is enough..Will it be easy? Heck no. I love the relationships that I have had over my life. But, maybe this is just the way things are supposed to be. Which includes not having those certain people in my life any longer. I have to choose to be happy and content with my life. To enjoy the relationships that I do have, and the ones that are yet to come. I want to live my life, like a young child. One who is excited about each day. To have child like faith again. Just like Jazzy and baby Sophie in this picture. Nothing can take away their joy. You can see how happy they are, and how they know they are loved. Oh, child like faith, here I come..

Happy 4th of July

Well, we get a long wkend to celebrate the 4th of July. And we are so looking forward to it. But it's gonna be a hot one for sure. The plan is to have our big bar-b-que like we have each year. Just a group of friends having a good time, sitting back enjoying burgers and hot dogs, and putting on a big fire work show. SO we will see how it goes. Wishing everyone a Happy 4th of July!