21 days till Christmas!

Yes, I am counting down the days! We are so excited about Christmas this year. Usually it is my husband and kids who are all filled with excitement, but this year, I have joined in the fun of decorating and singing in the car and watching the calendar as we mark the days till Christmas. We have been very busy lately. So thought I would fill yall in.

Travis and I celebrated our 13th Wedding Anniversary last month. We did our usual Outback Steakhouse and Christmas shopping. But we had a lot of good, deep conversations. And most of all, we talked about how blessed we are to have each other, I could not ask for a better husband and father of my babies.

Thanksgiving was very pleasant. Everyone got along, no drama. It was an answer to prayer. We even took a really good family picture. My husband and kids are so good to me, by sucking it up and posing over and over for my perfect family picture..lol

My best friends and I went to see New Moon on opening day! AMAZING! It stayed very close with the book, and left us all wanting more! Yes, you can guarantee we will be buying tickets on line in advance come next movie..

My twins started basketball season, and I am proud to say they even made the A team. They have worked so hard and I am thrilled to show them it does pay off. Jazzy girl started basketball too, and I think her games are going to be some great entertainment, the goals are 10ft tall and my short stuff has the hardest time getting the ball near the rim. But she is so motivated to keep trying. I think she gets that from her daddy, cause I would of just said "never freaking mind"! lol

This month, something is trying to sneak in and steal my joy. And I am doing everything I can to fight it. But, I think the source of it all is my baby will be turning 9 years old in a little over a month. (sigh) The days just keep flying by. I do wish Trav was home so he could be part of watching the kids grow up. I am so blessed and so privileged to be able to be there to watch them play every sport, and just to be there with them for everything that they enjoy doing. Cause I know one day, there will not be anymore 7am basketball practices, and 8pm gymnastics lessons to tend to..Oh, what will I do with all that spare time??

Well, I hope everyone is enjoying the Holidays and the shopping and just making memories with your families. Cause even when money is tight and not too many gifts under the tree, the memories are priceless.

Turkey, Dressing, Pudding Oh My!

So it seems the Holidays are knocking at the door. And where I used to be giddy with excitement about the family time and laughs and jokes and stories as we gather around the table. I now find my self dreading it all. It's called Thanksgiving for a reason, it should be a time where we are thankful for all God has given us, all that we have managed to trudge thru. Trust me, it has been an interesting couple of years, especially for my side of the family. And even though it would be easier to have a bad attitude and just be plain ugly to everyone, I am going to encourage everyone, including myself to go above and beyond what is asked of me. I might have to fake it at first, but maybe everyone else will follow my lead and we can make the best of it.

If you follow me on FB, you will see many people doing the couple of weeks, of "I am thankful for.." It has been sweet so far, but I encourage everyone to do it. Lord knows this week has been very emotional for me. And it has been a rude awakening, and we cannot take anything for granted. From our spouses, children, parents, siblings and those friends who are all so faithful. So take this time, and let those people know just how thankful you are to have them in your life. Don't let this Thanksgiving holiday just be about the turkey, dressing and delicious desserts. Take the time to spread your joy and love..

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

October is gone..

Hello All, just wanted to take the time to thank everyone for the comments. I am learning that I have quite a few readers, and that really excites me. So keep them coming..

October is almost gone, can you believe it? It was a busy month for my boys, for Cross Country. And at District Aaron was one runner away from placing 15th in District, he was number 16th, and they gave medals for 1 thru 15th place. He still beat all his previous times and finished at 14.06, and Cameron fell at the start of the race, but still managed to beat all his times and finish at 14.26. I am very proud of them. Football season will be finishing up for them next week, and even though they both made some great plays, I am ready for basketball. =0)

Was listening to the radio this morning, and I guess one of the contestants on the biggest Loser was a guest on the radio show, and she told her heart breaking story about how her husband, daughter and newborn son, were all killed in this tragic accident. And oh my goodness, I was in tears. How anyone can overcome anything like that, must be a God thing. I don't think I could crawl out of bed ever again..

Which brings me to one of my Biggest Pet Peeves..Drinking and Driving..My husband has put in alot of hours at work, and is now on a 6 day work week. They were just put on a schedule to where they have to cover the wkends from now on. And one of the guys he works with, has had 3 DWI, has the breathing tube thing to start his car. Well, when they checked his machine, they found that he had tried to start it while intoxicated, so they are making him do 45 days in jail. Which he has to serve on the wkends. (kind of like a slap in the wrist)..Anyways, my husband did not get to watch the Cowboys Game, which if yall know him, that is a big deal. So when this guy came to work on Monday, after serving time in jail, he asked my husband "Man, did you see that Cowboys Game!"? I think my husband took every thing he had to not beat the guy down..ha,ha But think about that people..This guy has been caught drinking and driving 3 times, and tried to drive while intoxicated again, and gets 45 days in jail, and gets to check in on the wkends and sleep, read a book and watch the freaking game! tell me how that is teaching him a lesson. And what is it going to take before they put him away,?? We all know the answer to that, he will have to kill some innocent family or someones child before they so something. And it drives me crazy..Pretty sad, huh?

We need to agree and pray for the laws to get tighter on that. One warning maybe, but 4, NO I don't think so..

Nightmare followed with peace..

So, the flu hit my house pretty hard. First Cam wakes up with a vicious fever, and chills and a severe headache. We spent some time in the hospital to try to get the fever down, after 5 days of him being miserable, he goes back to school. Than the next wk, the other twin starts with the fever, coughing, sneezing. But he was still full of energy and not as miserable as his brother. Than the following wk, Cam starts running a high fever again, which was caused by an infection from not recovering from the flu the first time. So after dr visits, and medicine and missing so much work. It cost us almost 500 bucks. Which really hurt the check book. So we are trying to play catch up again. And I guess I had all that on my mind lastnight when I went to bed. Which is where my dream came from..

It was almost midnight on Christmas Eve, and I realized I had not been able to buy Christmas for the kids. SO I run to the car, and drive all over town to find a store open. Well I end up at Target. I run inside and get a buggy, and I am running and crying because all the shelves are empty. I cry out to God, "please Lord, my family needs to have something to open tomorrow"! Than I see this shelf, and it has 3 oranges, 3 candy canes, has a baby stroller for Jazzy, a Texas Tech pullover for Aaron and Long Horns pullover for Cameron, and even had a MP3 player that I remember Trav asking for. So, I am in tears and shoving all this stuff in my buggy. I head to the check out line, and while the cashier is scanning all my stuff. I get my wallet out, and open it slowly and realize I only have 50 bucks and one quarter. I start to panic again, wondering what I would have to put back. Than she tells me my total $50.24.! I than begin to laugh, and cry and get the heck out of the store. I woke up hearing my self giggling. And just laid in bed. I think, that it was God's way of telling me, that he will provide for me and my family. I just have to trust in him, and quit worrying..So there you go people. Not sure why I felt the need to share it with you. But I did, and hopefully it ministers to you the way it did me.

Random Thoughts for Fall 2009

Just a little this and that..

*Is it just me, or when cooler weather is here, I find myself in the kitchen doing allot of cooking.

*I love that feeling, when you log onto your email and see that someone thought enough of you to send you an email.

*Flu, and strep has hit Boyd hard.

*Anyone else notice that it has rained almost every Thursday since football started!

*Bought my ticket online to the New Moon movie, so giddy with excitement.

*Stayed home for a week with my son who had the flu, and because I was so bored and nervous I gained a bunch of weight!

*I really need to be motivated to do something about getting this weight off!

*Find myself wondering if anyone ever reads this blog?

*Some people really annoy me when they can be so wishy washy..Make a decision and stick with it!

*Wonder how long before my boys feel they are too old to give me hugs and say I love you.

*Why is it, that on Saturdays when you have nothing to do, you cant sleep in, but the Saturdays you have to be up early, you fight hard to get out of bed.

*It's like Christmas morning when you get your winter clothes out and they still fit!

*Sometimes, a person likes a little compliment, especially when your constantly being negative to them.

*We really need to tend to the relationships in our lives now, instead of going and always looking for new ones.

*Very proud that my boys are still doing Cross Country every morning at 6:30am, I think I would of already quit!

*It has been 6 years since Trav has been working nights, and I am still not used to it.

*A few people have found me on facebook that I went to school with, and they have some really good memories of me..lol

*Romo has not been doing too good so far this season, but I find it funny how everyone is ready to get rid of him, but when they do win and make the play-offs those same people will be cheering them on.

*October 1st, Trav and I had our first date 14 years ago, who would of thought we would actually get married and have a sweet family.

Countdowns: as of 10/12/09

*Thanksgiving 45 days

*New Moon 39 days

*13th Wedding anniversary 39 days

*Christmas 74 days

One Proud Momma...

My 7th grade little men, had their first school football game lastnight. And even though they lost, I think our team did a fantastic job. I was very impressed, and proud of everyone on the team. But I think most of all, I am impressed about the coaching. My boys finally got to see what a team is supposed to be like. Guess all those years of Pee Wee Football paid off. Cause we really have some amazing talent. Those coaches let all the boys take turns playing, and they all had the opportunity to show them what they could do on the field. I am looking forward to the rest of the season. Not so much all the long drives, cause I think lastnights drive was a big ole beating. But I will be there with my Boyd shirt on, cheering on those boys!

Where did the Butterflies go?

Back at work like most of you after a long 3 day weekend. And I am sure some of yall had the same issues of not wanting to get out of bed this morning. It was rough! Hoping everyone had a nice Labor Day Wkend. Mine was busy, my twins had their first track meet for cross country. The 1st numbers they gave was they ran against 210 kids, but the actual number was 180. And they got 82nd and 85th place. I was still pretty proud. Considering they only had 3 days of practice before the event. And now they seem more motivated, like they know what to expect and what they have to do to make district meet. Cameron even got up before church on Sunday and ran around our land, I was pretty impressed. Looking forward to seeing how far they can go with this.

It seems like I spent my 3 day wkend eating, lots of yummy food. I even baked my very first lemon supreme bunt cake, and it was delicious. If you follow me on face book, you all know Trav works ALOT of hours lately. I think since we have been back from vacation he has put in 180 hrs in 3 weeks! We only saw him on Sundays, while he tried to be a trooper, he was a little on the grumpy side. Well, we FINALLY had a date night, we got together with an old friend and her fiancee. We tried some new Mexican restaurant in South Lake, and it was ok..Not better than El Paseo of course..We than went to Grapevinve mills mall to walk around before we caught the movie. And it was just so sweet to watch a new couple, they still listened to every word each other spoke, and my friends eyes and smile just light up at the touch of her new fiancee. They walked hand in hand, and he held the door open for her and was just super sweet. She is full of those butterflies in the tummy. It made me think and after almost 13 years of marriage, my butterflies are moths..lol And I sure do miss them. We used to do little things for each other to keep the marriage fresh. I used to do little notes in the lunch box, and messages in lipstick on the mirror. Or a card just to let him know I was thinking about him. Trav used to bring home flowers just because, and just call me to let me know he was thinking of me. We used to talk non stop about everything. But man, with schedules like we have now, it makes it difficult to do those extra things. Or we just got lazy, now we take shifts in the bed, and I am lucky if I get a slap on the bottom as we pass in the bathroom. lol We do date day during the week, but it usually is convo going over the latest stuff with the kiddos. So, I am curious to those who read this blog. What kind of tips can you give me to help bring those butterflies back?

1st day of school

Today my twins went to their 1st day of Middle School, and my baby into the 3rd grade. I think everything went well. They were all excited and happy this morning. I was super bummed I did not get to drop Jazzy off in her class and get a picture of her and the teacher. But pretty excited that the boys asked me to help them get situated at their lockers, and even gave me a hug good bye. Cause I know next year they will only want me to drop them off at the curb. Than, I joined all my lady friends for breakfast like we have been doing since the twins started 1st grade. We usually use this time, to encourage each other or to just get thru the 1st day of school blues. Although I was the only one who got teary eyed today. 7th grade is just a big deal to me. And I know my boys were really nervous about having a locker and having 7 teachers, and athletics. Just wish I could be there, hiding in the hallways, lurking thru the doors, just in case they need me. lol I know that once I talk to them tonight and they tell me how great the day was, I will feel much better. But still they all are growing way to fast. I had to bargain with Jasmine about doing her hair. She is just ready to do it all on her own. But, its like if I can hold on to that part just a little longer, than I know I still have my baby who needs me. Pretty sad huh?

Been on facebook, and reading some status's. Lots of moms dealing with sending their kiddo off to college. And Lordy, I am not looking forward to that. Ciera did not do the college thing, but when she moved out the 1st time, it was pretty tough on us. But, she came back a month later, and now is gone again. But the 2nd time was not as bad, and she seems to be doing ok. When I think of the boys and Jazzy leaving the house, I get this sick feeling in my gut. Cause I sure don't know what I will do with myself. Hopefully by than, Trav will be home at night with me. I see how fast time is going by, and know it will come alot faster than I want. But what can a mom do? Just got to raise them and love them, and lots of praying, and I know they will make me proud.

Us momma's just got to hang in there, and continue to be cheerleaders for the kiddos! Cause that is just what we are supposed to do...

Count downs..

First day of School: 0 days

13th Wedding Anniversary: 88 days

New Moon release: 88 days

Christmas: 122 days

Vacation 2009

Hello Everyone..I know it has been a long time. It seems when we got back from Vacation, life was in full swing again. But, I am back now. And will say Vacation was great! It was different with out Ciera joining us, she was missed. But I will admit it was kind of peaceful, cause the boys were like best friends the entire time. And that does not usually happen, cause they usually are both fighting for her attention. But hopefully, she will join us again for vacation. So we did Market Square, the River Walk, Fiesta TX. Lots of walking, the boat ride, and lots and lots of amazing mexican food! We even took a friend for Jasmine, so that Trav and I could have some time together. So it was a great 30th birthday gift for me, and some much needed family time away from good ole Boyd. But let me tell ya, I had the most humiliating moment of my life at Fiesta Tx! The girls and I had just gotten out of the lazy river and were walking down some steps, and I some how lost my footing, and there I go, it was like slow motion. My feet went up in the air, my legs spread wide open, and my butt hit and bounced 1,2,3 times down the steps before I could stop myself. A group of guys behind me were like "OH My Gosh! Are you ok?" That is when I refused to make eye contact, I took off my flip flops which had blown out on my way down, and I got up and grabbed the girls and walked away..LOL And yes, I woke up with bruises and my back a little sore! Between that and the mild sun burn on my back, I was pretty miserable on the trip back home. The kids had a great time, even though I think their favorite part is the hotel! The boys and Trav rode the roller coasters, and than the twins and Alissa rode something called the "Goliath" and yes it is huge. Jazzy was excited to find out she was too short to get on it, so we took her pic of her pretending she was on. lol And I was too big of a chicken to ride it. The kids went back for a 2nd ride and were 3 people away from getting back on, when the roller coaster broke, WITH PEOPLE ON IT! So, I call that Favor that the kiddos were not on. We left San Antonio with lots of laughs, lots of funny stories and some good ole memories. And looking forward to something new next year.

The Big 30!

Hello, I know it has been a while since my last post. But life has been pretty non eventful lately, so not really much to write about. I will say, that I have made it possible where my faithful readers can make comments on here. Just post it under anonymous if you don't want to make an acct. I look forward to what people think of my fabulous blogs! So tomorrow is the big day for me. I will officially be 30 years old. And I have been super excited about this for a while. We of course are spending it on vacation, where I will be eating lots and lots of Mexican food. Who knows maybe I will get to see Tony Romo during practice! That would make for a perfect 30th b-day gift!

So, yesterday Jasmine and I were driving down the road, and she was really quiet, and if you know Jasmine you know that is not normal for her. So I ask her what she is thinking about. And she says "You know momma, when you die, I cant think of anyone that will be able to take care of me like you do" Of course this catches me off guard, and I laugh and say "well how about I don't die, any time soon?" Than she says "well your going to be 30 and your just getting closer and closer to the dying age" LOL Oh I laughed so hard. I explained to my sweet Jasmine she had nothing to worry about, and that I would be around for a very long time..Oh the things that go thru her head. On other Hammett news, my mother in law got us a new puppy. He is a cutie, we named him Cosmo. He is half Pekingnese and Chihuahua, they call it a Peka-Chu. lol

A few of my lady friends joined me for dinner and movie, we watched The Ugly Truth. It was a very funny movie, but not for the kiddos. Lots of loving talk, and bad words.

Now in response to some comments made on my post..First of thank you for posting your comments. As for the topic about Best Friends. Your right, as we grow up we realize there are different friends for different things. But, I still find it rewarding to think that as I get older and the kids move out and all that stuff. That I will have a really good best friend, that is that "one" I refer to. And to even think I will have more than "one" is even more rewarding..!

Just a quick countdown update..

Vacation: 2 days

30th b-day: 1 day

1st day of school: 19 days

Trav and I celebrate our 13 wedding anniversary: 107 days

New Moon release date : 107 days

Looking forward to some comments! Also a real quick thank you for the people who have been a big part of my life over the last 30 years. I know we all have different seasons with each other. But I will admit the last 5 years of my life, I have met some of those most amazing women. Who are all so different and who all bring something different into my life. But most of all, love me and accept me for WHO I am..Especially to my Husband and my kiddos, who have made my life complete! Love yall.

Lazy Days of Summer

Just one more month, and the kiddos all get back to school. I think they are more than ready to go back. I am nervous for my twins, cause they go to Middle School. Big time 7th graders, watch out now! Jazzy will be the oldest at the Elementary school this year. She is excited about that. So far the kids have just been having friends over and going over to friends houses to keep entertained. My oldest Ciera moved out this week, so we were able to move the boys into their own rooms. But they can't seem to stay away from each other, you always find them in one of the rooms together. I wondered how they would act when we did it. The boys are old enough now to attend the Youth Group at our church. And they are having so much fun! They are growing too fast for my liking. But, what can you do? We are all excited for vacation, it will be short one, but still allot of fun. Over the last couple of months, I have taken on a kind of 2nd job, just to make some extra money, and it helps out the church. With that extra money we have been able to do small projects around the house. The pictures are what we have accomplished so far. We have so much more we want to do, but it just takes some time to save up. We are very proud of the hard work and money we have put into it so far. So be sure to stop by and take a look! Also, Saturday I am having my Pampered Chef Party, so if you did not get an invite, it is only cause I did not have your e-mail address. So just get with me, or just show up. The more the merrier..

Just a couple of count downs, I am doing..

* 14 days till my big 30 b-day!

* 15 days till Vacation.

*31 days till the 1st day of school.

*119 Days till Twilight New Moon comes to the movies.

*119 days till Trav and I celebrate our 13th wedding anniversary!

Have a Fabulous wkend!

Best Friends

Awe, the rain has been refreshing for my new plants. Pretty amazing to see how God takes care of even the smallest things like the plants, and trees, and grass. And learning that, no matter what comes our way, because God loves us, we will have victory in every area of our life. Sometimes, we just have to remind ourselves of that..

*So, last Friday night, I could not sleep. I find myself hating Fridays, cause Trav works that night, and my kiddos are usually with their friends. And so it leaves me feeling petty lonely. So I spent the night flipping thru channels. And there was nothing on TV. But, something that really got my attention, was that every TV show character had a "Best Friend"

*I Love Lucy

*Hannah Montana

*I Carly

*Sex & The City

*Friends

*Grey's

*Private Practice

Get my point? And I know it is TV shows, but in my real life, I have so many wonderful friends. And different times thru out the year, I see more of them depending on whats going on in our lives. Most of my friends I met thru the kids friends. So naturally sporting events is the biggest time to mingle with them. Most of the time I can send an email, or pick up the phone and have some one there to listen to me. I used to focus so much on having the "Best Friend". But my Pastor said once, that we are grown ups, and not in high school, so basically our spouses should be that best friend. And Trav is great. He is a good listener, and is very faithful and understanding to my feelings and desires. But of course with his night time job, it makes it hard to have him there all the time.

But ya know, I miss being "the one".. Does that make sense? In high school, I had an amazing Best Friend. Even after we both had babies and got married, we spent almost every wkend together. Had dinner at each others houses, shopping together, our kids played with each other all the time. When something terrible happened, I was the first one she called. And of course when something wonderful happened, I was the first person she called. But, because the life styles changed, the relationship changed. And it was very difficult to understand why things had to change. We just grew apart. Now I know, that I was growing in my faith, and my walk with Jesus, and I could not allow anything to hold me back. Today, I have many amazing women in my life, relationships that I take very seriously. And most of those friends already have "the one" they consider the Best Friend. But, a part of me misses having "the one" friendship. I just desire to have that companion ship with a person, who thinks about me. Who wants to see me often. Who will call me up on the phone, just to see what's going on. And not just about me, but for me to able to do the same for them. The problem we always seem to run into, is we are so busy. Just being a mommy takes allot of time away. We all have different schedules, different living situations. Especially me, who does not like to be on the phone. lol But, you know the difference for me now. Is, I don't "need" a best friend anymore. I "desire" to have one. To me that is a big difference. I know, that as I get older, I will meet more people. And that my relationships will change, some. But, I am looking forward to God bringing me that "desired friendship". And I am so ready!

Goofy days..

Hello everyone. Follow along..

*Whew, this heat is something else. I think we are getting a cold front on Friday, high is supposed to be 92, we are pretty messed up when we call that a cold front.

*Finally went to Sam Moon for the 1st time. Loved that place, but my husband called it female hell. It was pretty crazy, but the ladies were kind if they ran you over. lol I got a purse and some sun glasses for under 30 bucks!

*I miss my long hair. But the picture reminds me of how Romo is officially single now. Maybe he can give 100% to the team now.

*There is never a dull moment in my house. As you can tell from the pictures my kiddos keep me laughing.

*I really do feel bad for the parents who are divorced and have to miss a month at a time with their kiddos. I think I would go crazy if I had to do that. My boys have trouble every summer inviting their friends over, cause they are at the "dads" house for the month. Bummer.

*Even though I am the biggest violator if this, I find it some how amusing, how soon we jump to conclusions about how someone has treated us. Communication is very important in every relationship. I have found so many times, the other person really had no clue where I got my idea from. I think this just shows my brain thinks too much.

*Still reading the book "Hello my name is God" and learning allot. One of the things, is how we treat people shows what's in our heart. And that God gives us mercy. And we should do the same to people, especially family and friends. Cause holding on to bitterness and resentment will hurt you more than you think.

*I am so ready for vacation. Only 23 days and counting..

*And the big 30 is only 22 days away! So excited.

Well, it is the wkend again! And it is a HOT one! So hot that I chopped off my long curly hair. Never have had it this short before. I think it ended up shorter than I planned. But getting lots of compliments. That is always a plus. The week was a long one for me. But once I quit putting so much effort in being so unhappy, it got better. Have you ever noticed, how having a bad attitude affects your life period? I swore I was having a hard time finding anything good in my life. And I think about it, and that was pretty stupid on my part. I guess each day we have to make a choice, to either have a good day no matter what, or to sulk and be negative. And sometimes it is easier to be negative, but choosing the other, has so much better results. I have started reading this book called "Hello my name is God" and I find myself having a hard time putting it down. It's pretty funny too. I highly recommend it. My wkend starts with a slumber party for Jazzy, she has invited 4 other girls over, and we will be swimming, watching movies, and eating all night. She has been super excited. I just hope they all get along. Just a few thoughts I would like to share..

*Even, though I was not a huge fan of Jackson, he sure has taken up allot of my TV time, and taken allot of attention away from Jon and Kate, who I am a big fan of.

*We started picking our tomatoes this week, but by the time they get to be red, they get squishy and go bad. Sure would like to know what we are doing wrong?

*Having twin 12 year old boys, has been so much fun. But, I did not know that boys attitudes could be as nasty as a girls. The eye rolling, and talking back, and the slight stomping, is going to push my patience to its limit, than will have to start the beat down. Something I am not looking forward to.

*Told my Jazzy last night, that I sure want another baby, after a quick thought, she informed me she likes being the baby, and wants it to stay that way.

*Was doing so good there for a while working out during my lunch, but it seems if I don't start my week off with exercise, than the whole week is shot. I want to be one of those people who can get up an hour early and use the fancy machine I had to have. I wonder what that would take to accomplish.hmm?

Well, have an enjoyable wkend, and stay cool!

Big steps..

So, if you follow me on facebook. You will see my "status" being pretty depressed. And I think people were starting to really worry about me. Yes, I think I did hit rock bottom. In my mind I did. Dealing with rejection is really tough. And I think that so many of us deals with some type of rejection in our lives. Starting from child hood, I can remember dealing with stuff, that a child should not have dealt with. Being raised in an environment that was not always so loving, no compassion, just so full of strife. And than to grow up and still see it. To see how it can really ruin a person, and make you pretty bitter and just a miserable person to be around. And I think that is where I was headed. But because of my relationship with God, and because I have sown some good seed in people's lives, it helped me to get out of my funk. I refuse to live like that, to be so full of negative energy, and let what people think control how I live. Instead of focusing on all the things wrong in my life, I have to count my blessings for all the things right in my life. So after fighting a terrible migraine yesterday, I got up, and my kids wanted to get some dinner. We went to the best place on earth "El Paseo", and we had a good time. My twins have the silliest jokes, and make me laugh so hard. And Jazzy is just so freaking sweet, and showered me with hugs and kisses. And I stopped and thought right there at life. And I saw those little faces, and realized that those were why I get out of bed each morning. God gave me those little people as a gift, and to take away all the pain I have endured in my life. And now it is my job to be the best mommy, and to always make sure they know how much God loves them, and how much I love them. So I tell you all that, to say..I know we all did not have the best child hood. And it was not fair. But we made it thru guys! And we are here now, and we have a good thing going. And so we have to get up off the ground, dust ourselves off, leave the past in the past. And live life! To expect nothing, and be grateful for everything..

One of the scriptures to help me thru this time in my life is this one..

Psalms 61:1-4
Hear my cry, God. Listen to my prayer. From the end of the earth, I will call to you, when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
For you have been a refuge for me, A strong tower from the enemy. I will dwell in your tent forever. I will take refuge in the shelter of your wings. Selah.

The simple things..

You know, I find myself getting so caught up in the "drama", the he said she said, or the "what in the world just happened"? That I am just exhausted. My heart is overwhelmed, and it makes me have to say, enough is enough..Will it be easy? Heck no. I love the relationships that I have had over my life. But, maybe this is just the way things are supposed to be. Which includes not having those certain people in my life any longer. I have to choose to be happy and content with my life. To enjoy the relationships that I do have, and the ones that are yet to come. I want to live my life, like a young child. One who is excited about each day. To have child like faith again. Just like Jazzy and baby Sophie in this picture. Nothing can take away their joy. You can see how happy they are, and how they know they are loved. Oh, child like faith, here I come..

Happy 4th of July

Well, we get a long wkend to celebrate the 4th of July. And we are so looking forward to it. But it's gonna be a hot one for sure. The plan is to have our big bar-b-que like we have each year. Just a group of friends having a good time, sitting back enjoying burgers and hot dogs, and putting on a big fire work show. SO we will see how it goes. Wishing everyone a Happy 4th of July!

In the beginning..

Do you ever wonder, why God brings certain people into your life? Does anyone ever question why we cant choose our family? I know that sounds harsh, but really..I just find it hard to understand, how some people live for the drama, how they can be so selfish and just mean. And get enjoyment out of seeing people hurt. It's something that I may never understand. But the daily battle I am fighting right now, it to rise above them, and be the better person. But my flesh is screaming for me to react and do the easier thing..I might not be like my husband and children who are social butterflies and can talk to just any stranger. I am more laid back and reserved and I like to people watch. But if you ask my friends, they will let you know how passionate I am about my relationships. But people judge too quickly, instead of giving people the benefit of the doubt. We are supposed to be Godly examples to people, and act in a way that is pleasing to God, to where a complete stranger can see us, and think "Wow, is that how amazing life is, to have God in it".. I ask myself, how my actions portray that Godly life.

I think back to the beginning of my child hood. I was the only girl with 2 brothers. And we used to have so much fun, we were very close and did everything together. And had the best imaginations. I remember us wearing my head bands over our eyes and pretending we had special glasses that could see thru any wall. And we built big forts with blankets and would play all day in it. And now we are all grown up, and married with kids dealing with life. And those relationships we had are no longer there. And it is heartbreaking. So, I want to know, as a mom who has children, how can I prevent my own children from the heartache? How can I guarantee that my kids will always love each other and be there for each other, even when they are grown and married with kids? Is there a guarantee?

Love of my life..

This is my sweet husband Trav.. We have been married for 12 years. He is my companion, best friend, my one true love. No not everyday is sweet love. But because we are devoted to each other, we fight for what we have. He is the one person who knows how to cheer me up. The one, who can hold me in his arms, and make me feel like no one in the world could ever hurt me. And for this I am truely blessed.

Little People

So these little people are my reason for getting up each day..Ciera was brought into my life when she was 6 years old. Has not been easy, but she is like my very own. My twins Aaron and Cameron were born when I was very young, but they are such blessings and can make me smile when I am feeling down. Definitely momma's boys. And Jasmine is my sweet heart, my little mini me. You will never see her frowning, and this girl gives the best hugs and kisses EVER. My children are a true gift from God. And I pray that they never go a day with doubt about how proud and how much they are loved by Trav and I.

Joined the club..

So, I have a myspace acct, and a facebook acct. but not everyone has these. So I figure, why not go ahead and have a blog for all to see. So everyone can see the daily life of the Hammett's. Where I post my thoughts, and feelings and lessons learned. SO keep up with us!