The Lovely Life...

Life has been crazy busy, but we are loving every minute of it.

Just a little this and that for my loving blogger followers..

I was denied approval to post a picture of this incident. But my sweet Cameron was with some friends, and playing hide and go seek in the dark. He said he was an assassin ninja because no one could see him. And when someone spotted him, he jumped up and went full blast ninja style into a big ole tree. I got that phone call at 3am, that said Cameron is ok, but he is going to need stitches. So I meet them at the ER and watch my Cam limp into the hospital and have a towel to his face, and his handsome face was jacked up. They cleaned it up, gave him shots to numb it and 4 stitches later he was all good. He is my tough little fella, not one single tear or flinch. Now about that bubble wrap and helmet..

My hard drive at work crashed on me, so after crying and whining for a couple of days. I have spent the last 2 weeks re entering 2012 invoices. I am up to the letter D! Whoohoo. I lost all my pictures, all my pre made documents. And no one felt sorry for me. Yeah tough crowd when you work with nothing but men.

I may have mentioned this little fella a couple of times.. Hee Hee But my sweet baby G celebrated his 1st birthday over the wkend. This little boy melts my heart. I am helping my little brother and sis out by keeping him overnight to help wean him off his mommy. He did so good. And Jazzy and I loved having him to spoil and just love like crazy.. I am thankful my sis trust me with her sweet baby boy.

Last year around this time is when my family was going thru a really tough time with my Grandpa. And if you followed my blog, it was all so bitter sweet when he passed away at the same time my sweet baby G was born. Well, guess what.. He did it again.. We have a new edition to our family. My cousin Brenda gave birth to a baby boy, and she named him Elijah Ovidio. He is named after his grandpa and great grandpa. Two wonderful men, and I am sure he is going to live up to his name for sure. I know my Grandpa must be proud. Congratulations Brenda, we are so proud of you! I know you will be an amazing mommy..

My Boys Sophmore Class is putting together a Live Nativity Scene. If you are in our area please stop by and help support them. I personally have never seen one, but I am super excited as this is coming together so wonderfully. We have a great group of dedicated parents and students who step up and help. My fellas are going to be one of the Wise Men and Joseph, and Jazz is going to be an Angel. Awe…

We want to wish each of you a very Merry Christmas! I pray that you are surrounded by people who you love and who love you back. I know sometimes Life can knock you flat on your face. And some days you wonder if there is ever any reason to keep on trying. I know this year has been one of the hardest years of my life. I got a wake up call, and the only reason I have made it this far is because I finally quit living life selfishly my way, and gave it all to God. We live, we make mistakes, but we learn and we move on, we Forgive ourselves!! That is a huge part And we choose to Love like Crazy.. And just thank God for the memories, and for 2nd chances.

When you hit rock bottom there is only one way to go and that is UP..

P.S. I wrote this blog on Friday morning, but could not post till tonight. I just want to say the horrible incident that happened yesterday has really rocked my world. My heart aches for those precious children and most of all those parents who lost their babies. Just agree in prayer that God surrounds them with his precious Love and Comfort and Peace.. A parent should never have to experience such tragedy..

Sowing and Reaping...

Just Sitting back,.Being very quiet,..
Watching Everyone and Everything around me has really given me a new insight on life.


Have to shamefully admit I have always been a fan of Karma, but I have to swallow my pride and admit that I am being given a big ole dose of Karma..

For years, I have been part of choosing sides and thinking I was better off if I just left certain people out of my life. Probably during times they were not doing things or living their life to what I thought was best. Have had blown up arguments over politics, religion, and what I thought someone really meant to say or do.
Walking around pointing my fingers and judging people, and making them feel like they were probably alone.

I am sure I have made God oh so proud… (sigh)

Oh my the tables have turned, and now it is my turn to be judged, and let me tell you it totally stinks and is heartbreaking.. But with time I have gotten over myself and quit throwing a woe is me party. And have spent the last couple of weeks feeling remorse for being such a big ole bitty to certain people in my life.

The crazy thing is there have been a handful of people who have stepped up and been there for me the last couple of months.. These people have every right to dislike me, because when the tables were turned, I was a horrible person to them, and I shut them out of my life. And I have told them, that I surely don’t deserve their friendship. But they have all said the same thing to me, yeah I did hurt them, but they know my true heart, and they remember what a devoted friend I was to them over all.

How about that.. People who concentrate and remember all the good, and who don’t focus on the bad.
If they only knew how much my heart needed to hear that.. Sowing and Reaping.. Karma..

This adventure and realitly of life has really given me the desire to be the light for people.
I want to shine for those who are going thru a dark time in their life.

For the people who are beat down, and have no hope, I want to be that email, or text or phone call that says, yeah your situation stinks big time, but you got this.

God is good, and he believes in restoring relationships, and lives.

His grace and mercy has saved me.. And I am thankful for the trials and judgment in life to make me realize that I had and have issues, but I am still precious and loved.

Most of all, that I deserve to be happy and to be surrounded by people who love me too..

So, LOVE!!! It should be simple.

Yet, we complicate everything. For example: we are not commanded to judge other people, gossip about them, tell everyone else what so-and-so ought to do about the problems we see in them, decide whether or not they are worthy for "certain" blessings or condemn them to a life of suffering and sorrow.

I'm so glad I don't have to make any final judgments about anyone. I just get to love them like crazy, for who they are now..

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
― Lao Tzu

“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.”
― Oprah Winfrey

P.S.
Happy 16th Anniversary to my Amazing and Loving Husband.. The man that has reminded me what Real, Faithful, Love really is..And how blessed I am that God sent him my way..


16th Anniversary in Oklahoma City



Guest Blogger..

Guest Blogger.. My Jazzy girl wrote this in Writing Class, and I figured how perfect to share for the month of November..


Ten Things I am Thankful For… By Jasmine

1. I am thankful for my parents. They are always there for me. They love me very much. Also, when I am sad they cheer me up. Last, but not least they gave me life..

 2. I am thankful for my cousins.

 When I am sad they know how to cheer me up! Also, they make funny noises when I get a boyfriend or I tell them who I like. My baby cousin is the cutest. I was there for his birth and he smiles when I hold him.

3. I am thankful for my teachers.
That is the most awkward thing to say. The reason why I said that is because they take time out of their day to teach us. Even when we can be not so respectful some days.!

4. I am thankful for brothers!
That is also hard to say. They can be over protective of me at some point. But, I still love them. They are always there for me. Plus they take up for me. Last but not least they make me smile.

5. I am thankful for my sister.
 That girl is one the best things in my life. She makes me smile and she loves me. Also, she is protective over me. Even though sometimes she is annoying, I could not live without her.

6. I am thankful for my granny.
My Granny is awesome. I love going shopping with her. I get to go to her house almost every other weekend. She has done a lot for me in my life. She is always there for me. I love her so much.
7. I am thankful for my grandpa.
He is the best grandpa ever. When I stay with them, he takes me to the flea market. It is awesome. Before we start looking at stuff we go get food. I get nachos with jalapeño’s and he gets fruit. We share them with each other. Also, we love to play with his dog.

8. I am thankful for my Great Grandma.
She is awesome and she has gone thru a lot. She lost her husband (my great grandpa) last year in December. Ever since then we have been able to get really close. Some days we go to eat together. I go to the doctor with her so she doesn’t go alone. She has taught me how to cook tortillas. And even though she lives with my granny now, I get to spend the night with her.

9. I am thankful for my Nanaw.
She is my dad’s mom and she is awesome. She lets me hang out with her some times.  I go with her to get her hair done. Plus, she also lost her husband. I was only 2 when he died. She always talks about him and I just listen. So my daddy and brothers and I get to help take care of her land. We mow and fix things when it breaks.

10. I am thankful for my life. I love my life. I have the best life. I have people who care for me and love me. I have a roof over my head. I have people to  love.. I have friends and
Last but certainly not least I have God in my life.



Just a Random Kind of Post...

I Apologize for such a Random Thought type of blog entry today..


First, I wanted to let everyone know that the Fellas did not make it to State Meet in Cross Country. They competed at Regional’s with 180 other fellas and against 24 other teams. And Aaron got 52nd place and the team got 8th place out of 24. I am still super proud of how well they finished and looking forward to next year to see how well they do.


Cross Country Team at Regional's

Second, I have to admit that the last 3 months I have been being a big ole pouting brat. I have been praying for God to help me in a certain area concerning some relationships. And over the last 3 months a few sweet ladies have reached out to me, invited me to lunch or dinner or to just talk or just a huge hug. And because it was not the ones I wanted them to be, I turned them down. (Not a proud moment of course) The other day I was listening to someone talk about the things they were struggling with, and I found myself relating to what she was feeling. Because it was not long ago that my family was enduring the same kind of thing. And I found myself enjoying her company, just talking, and listening and laughing. After I dropped her off I had a convo with God. I finally got a visual of what he was doing in my life, while I was too busy building that wall up around me, and questioning so many things, HE always knows what I need, and he always sends the right people my way. It is time for me to be confident in the person I am. To appreciate what and who I have NOW, and let go of all the rest.. Most of ALL, to know that God loves me and watches out for me, even when I take the bad roads in life from my horrible decisions.. He did not give up on me, he just waited for me to come to my senses and come running back to him. He embraced me in his wide open arms. I am ever so grateful for that..And thank you to those ladies who did reach out to me and minister love to me. It did not go un-noticed. 

Third, a certain fella taught me something over the last few months. About Faith.. He has a hat rack, and at the beginning of cross country season he removed all his hats from the rack, and he said that he was making room for all the medals he was going to win this year. At the end of the season his rack was full of medals. He stood strong on his Faith, and it paid off for him. I want to stand strong on my Faith and see many things come to pass in my life..I think we forget how amazing and loving the God we serve is,. Nothing is impossible for him, We just need to get out of the way, and let him do his thing..

Time to BRAG...

I really feel the need to share and to brag about my kiddos..

I may have mentioned before how my twin fellas have been doing cross country since their 7th grade year. 

7th Grade year





10th grade year

 I have to admit I disliked this “sport” because it was boring and it consisted of lots of early morning rides to school for practice. But, Trav and I sucked it up and as long as they were willing to give it their all, we supported them. Who would of thought that by their sophomore year in high school they would be doing so well and actually getting medals at these cross country meets.!?

Heck who would of thought that Trav and I would be THOSE crazy parents that are hard core on the side lines and mile markers screaming and yelling and cheering them on with our stop watches.. We love it! And we are so proud to say that our twins fellas made regional’s! This year they went to district and the top 10 runners qualify to go to Regionals. So Aaron and another team mate made top ten.


Aaron got 9th place with a 19.10 3 mile run

  But, because we actually have a good group of dedicated guys that make a team, they got 3rd place and get to go as a team also to the Regional Meet this Saturday in Arlington. Now, I am not going to be negative and say I am sure the road ends here for them. Because they will be competing with the best from here on out. But I will say either way, I am so super proud of these fellas for making it this far.. It is nothing but pure heart and dedication that each of them have, that has brought them to this point! Good Luck Guys! And Congratulations!!

One more picture just to say a big thank you to My Sis in law and her family for stopping by to show their support and let the boys know they are so proud of them..



Teresa & Russel and our nephew Brandon

Also a big shout out to my sugar bear.. Who after a rough tourney last summer.. Had lost her joy for pitching.. But this Fall ball season she had to pitch for her team as the regular pitcher was out sick. And my jazzy girl did an amazing job. She did not let her team down, and by the end of the season she found her Joy again. 

My Sugar bear when she was little..




Our little Grunt is a not so little anymore

And I have to brag and say that a parent from one of the teams we played wanted let me know that they love it when they play against Jasmine, because of her good attitude and because she is just so darn cute.. =0) Also a big shout out to Coach Ben, we look forward to playing with them every other year. Great coach who the girls respond to, and he knows how to build them up and make them feel they can take on the world.. His wife is pretty amazing too..
Now on to Basketball Season!!!

So It Continues....

So, I am behind on my blogging and my reading. I have to tell on myself and admit I have not been to the last Bible Studies, but I have not quit.. I am still reading and going strong!
I will see you there Chella, I promise!

The next couple of chapters cover a variety of topics.. After we discovered what the Root of our insecurities have been. We move on to the next topics..

Like our EGO and PRIDE..

The following things are what Beth Moore shared on these Topics..

She talks about how we set ourselves up for failure. We need to learn what we can handle and what we can’t. There is a volume of wisdom in knowing the difference.


She also says that sometimes people and situations make us feel insecure because they nick our pride, plain and simple. Just because pride fills a heart doesn’t keep it from breaking. It just keeps it from healing. AND Some need to come to the conclusion that we have no greater burden in all of life than our own inflated egos. No outside force has the power to betray and mislead us the way our own egos do. That Pride talks us out of forgiving and steers us away from risking. Pride cheats us of intimacy, because intimacy requires transparency. Pride is a slave driver like no other, and if it can’t drive us to destruction, it will drive us to distraction.

Than she talks about how insecurities can makes us act like total fools..

Not only can insecurity talk us into disastrous relationships, it can talk us out of great ones. And it can make us panic and act like freaks..

Heard another good message the other day.. One of the things that was said and stuck out to me is “We” put so much time, thought and work into how to treat our enemies.
Like avoiding them when we know they are going to be at the same place. So we don’t talk to them and we do Not making eye contact, and than (I) WE stay up all night upset because of it all. When how much easier would it be if we were just kind to them and just decided to love them anyways..? Swallowing your pride, and just know they are human and make mistakes, but God created them too, and loves them just like he loves us. You don’t have to be BFF, but you don’t have to act like a donkey either..
We talk about how horrible it is for young kids and teens to deal with being bullied, yet, we see grown adults do it, and we don’t say a thing about it. Seriously!

I grew up seeing pride tear relationships up.
Just because one person that we loved was mad at someone, than we all had to be mad at that person. I was taught that if a person did not come up and talk to me, than that person was rude. But yet I am not rude for not going up and talking to that person? Oh it gets better, how about the person who is skinny and confident,? I was taught that person was just a hooch or that they think their poop does not stink.. I grew up seeing that when someone hurt your feelings, you picked up the phone for a “woe is me party” and talked about that person to someone else. And you never even tell the person what they did and give them the chance to make it better or at least let them know you are mad at them.

And how about the times when we over react because we think we are being ignored by our spouse? Have you ever sent ugly texts, and nasty voicemails and blew some one’s phone up because you thought you were being ignored on purpose.? Only to find out they left their phone in the car or were in a meeting. And how about when you think your significant other was checking another lovely lady out. Oh my I have seen and done some doozies when it came to stuff like that....
I am ashamed to admit that I behaved that way, and that I thought it was ok. I was judgmental, and rude and ugly to people for no reason but my own ego and pride.

 I don’t know about you, but I am exhausted.. I know I cannot change over night, and it won’t be easy.. But, if we would just give it all to God.. If we would repent, and ask God to change our heart and show you where you need to change. Life could be so much more enjoyable..

We need to let God shovel us out of Insecurity, because without Him, we’re stuck..

The ROOT of it all...

Rooting It Out is the name of this chapter..
It covered so much information, and it took me a couple of times of reading and re-reading it so that I could let it sink in..
It talks about the root to our insecurity. The things that we have experienced in our up bringing and daily lives that makes us feel the way we do..
Points she shared..
Life is rough. It’s also beautiful but if we can’t get some respite from its cruelty, we will never have the healthy vision to savor its tender beauty.
Than she shares a scripture in Proverbs..
“Each heart knows its own bitterness” The more intense the pain the more it feels like nobody fully understands. Try as I might I can’t fully comprehend how a particular event affected your life, even if we both shared the same experience. Your personality and history shapes your response, just as my own unique background affects mine. We’d go only so far in one another’s shoes before laces came loose.
During particularly lonely or frustrating times, perhaps you, like me, have felt that nobody else gets it. But HE gets it better than we do..
She list the different things that we could of experienced like:
Instability in the home...

Significant Loss...

Rejection...

Dramatic Change...

Personal Disposition...
I dont know about you, but I for one can say yes to about half of those.
Here is a journey into my little mind and life..
My real dad was an alcoholic, and so he and my mom divorced when I was about 3 years old. He slowly stopped being a part of my life, and when I was finally old enough to use the phone and write him. I was always the one to chase after him, and just hope that he would take the time to talk to me on the phone and or respond to my letters. At such a young age I just wanted to be convinced that he still cared and loved me. I grew up doing this, even though he really did not show interest in being a part of my life. I really believed for years, that I was just not good enough for him to love me like he should of loved me. Now, as an adult and a mother, and many great sermons that I have heard, and a mighty God we serve, I have forgiven him for this, I now have a some what good relationship with my real dad, and don’t hold a grudge against him anymore.

But, I have learned that because of how he made me feel, that in my other relationships, I am the one feeling the need to chase after them, and constantly looking for any attention they will throw my way.. And why I take it so personal when I think or know when someone is ignoring me or upset with me. I know it sounds horrible but, basically I want all the attention, when realistically it cannot be just about me. Darn that sharing!!

Beth Moore says that all the things she listed are in many ways, scars on the soul left by hardships,. Insecurity that results from the way we’ve coped rather than healed.

The good news is readers, is God knows! Beth shares this last thing..

He does not take lightly that some of us were raised in a veritable madhouse. He does not take lightly that some of us have been mentally berated or physically beaten or sexually abused or simply abandoned.

God will wipe away every tear from the eyes of those who trust Him, and there will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things will pass away and all our hardships will be finished..

Again, “Now that is Refreshing”…
So be kind people, you really have no idea what a person has or is going thru in life..