Happy 15th Birthday Twin Fellas!

My handsome, smart, funny, loving Twin A and Twin B are 15 years old today..
I could go on and on about how much fun they have been, how proud we are of them, and how fast they have grown.
 I can let everyone know how big of a boob bag I have been about them turning 15!

But, I say let the pictures tell the story..

In the Beginning...

So Aaron & Cameron.. Happy Birthday!

We love you, and look forward to watching you accomplish the desires of your heart.

Finish Strong! Finish Well!

Freshmen Fellas who made varsity



Aaron



Cameron



15 Years of Pure Joy, Lots of Laughter, and Lots of Love..

Love Always

Mom

Let's K.I.S.S

Keep
It
Simple
Smarty (Really it is supposed to say STUPID, but I dont like that word)

Have you ever watched babies & toddlers play? If you could spend a day watching them play, I think we adults could learn a few things. We as adults (ME) spend so much time worrying over the silliest things. What does “So & So” think?
What did “So & So” say about me?
Does “So & So” even like me?
What if I say something wrong and “So & So” Rejects me.?


But, in the life of the precious little people, they are just so confident, and full of love and acceptance. When they see you and you just smile at them, or say their name. They get a big ole grin. When they complete the task of taking their first bite of baby food, or a puzzle or sing a song, and you clap for them and tell them GOOD JOB! They smile and clap for themselves too. When you tell them they have pretty shoes (cool for boys) they smile and tell you who bought it for them. They say Thank you when you hand them juice and gold fish. When they play outside, they run after each other, and they don’t care how the other toddlers are dressed, or if they have the latest I Pad 7000.... When their friend falls off the slide, they stop what they are doing and say “Oh No!” and run to help them up. Some even suggest a kiss or band aid for their boo boo. They keep it so simple. They show compassion!


So quit thinking so much! Have a toddler’s heart. Be excited for everyone’s accomplishments. Show appreciation for every little and big thing that is done for you. When your friend falls down in life, be there to help them up. Most of all, Smile and Learn to Love Everyone.. Even those "So & So's"
Let’s Learn to K.I.S.S…

Happy Birthday Grandpa!

Wow! It will be 3 months this Saturday since my Grandpa received his healing, as he entered into Heaven.. March 17th 2012 my Grandpa would have celebrated his 72nd birthday! He loved his birthday! He loved everyone’s birthdays. He would walk around the house singing “Happy Birthday to meee!”..

This will be our families first time not to have him here to celebrate.
Gosh how we miss him so much! I miss his voice..
He would call me on the phone, and leave me a voice mail, He would say “Hey Mija, this is your GRAAANDPAAA, and I am fixin to cook some meat, so come eat”!

I miss his laugh! He was always laughing,.. I think the hardest thing for me, has been seeing my grandma, and looking behind her to see where my grandpa is. Cause they were always together.. Like I forget that he is not here with us anymore. She misses her best friend. But she has really amazed us, with how well she has been doing. Still Smiling..

To be honest, I was dreading his birthday coming up, I figured the family would be sad, and we would tip toe around the fact that it is my grandpa’s birthday. But, my little brother Jess had a great idea. He has invited the family over to his house for a cook out on the 17th, we are going to celebrate my grandpa’s birthday the way he would have loved to do it. Lots of food, Lots of Family, Lots of laughs! I know my grandpa is smiling up in Heaven and proud of his precious grandson Jessie for thinking of him like this. Darn that Jessie, he was always the favorite grand kid, guess he will still hold that Title!



Happy 72nd Birthday Grandpa..

OHHH Baby!!

I am a female.. I over think everything.. My mind is going non stop all the time.. Usually I can get over myself, and move on to think of something new.. But lately, my mind and heart is staying on one particular thing. A Baby! I want a baby.. The thought sends my husband running for the hills. He already made it very clear, that if I “get” another baby, he is filing for divorce. How RUDE!! Of course there are babies around me every where.. From my sweet friend who has Baby Gracie, to my handsome little nephew Gabe, and let’s not forget that I actually have the honor of playing with all the little bitty people in the church nursery. You would think between all of them, I would get my baby fix. But it is not working.
 I STILL want to adopt an infant.


* (Please Excuse the following Rant for a minute)
Had a conversation with some of my friends the other day about this. Talking about how hard and expensive it is to adopt babies, toddlers and children. But yet there are so many precious babies out there that are being neglected, and have never experienced what real love for them should be. They are living in Foster Homes, or Orphanage, or even worse, living with their parent who only has them to get that monthly paycheck. These precious little people being mistreated, and harmed, and killed. (Side note: NO I don’t think all foster homes or orphanages are horrible) And we wonder why kids grow up to be insecure and hateful. When all they really need is to be loved. I am not questioning God; I know he loves all the precious little people. But, I know so many couples, who have been married for years, and have a nice home, and have been trying for years to have a baby, but cant.. Yet, there are many couples or single ladies, who don’t even want a baby, and get PG, and than get rid of it like nothing. Like it was an inconvenience.. It is something I cannot wrap my mind around..

Back to me…

So anyways, I have asked God to show me, why my heart and mind is on this baby thing lately. And it all became clear.. Besides the fact that I just LOVE babies.

In less than 10 days my handsome twin babies are going to be 15 years old..In 3 months they will be going on their first missions trip to CANADA! In a matter of a year, they will be driving, dating, and spending less time at home. In less than 3 years they are going to graduate from High School, and go off to college! A part of me is super excited to see them grow, and to see how God will use them.

But than a part of me, is screaming NOOOOOO!!


Someone push pause, this is happening way too soon.!! I sware it was just last month, that we went to Ciera’s open house in 2nd grade with my babies in their stroller.


Or was it yesterday that we were doing the happy dance cause they went peepee in the potty!? Oh how I love being a mommy. And oh how my heart aches, to know that one day my house will be quiet. There will be no “MOM, I am hungry!” or “MOM, the boys peed on the toilet seat!” or “MOM, tell Cam to let me play the X Box too!”.. No more late night basketball, baseball/softball games, no cross country meets, or track meets to freeze at. No more half time shows to watch the cheerleading.


Oh Sweet Jesus! What will I do with myself?!

Prozac STAT!

Please blogger followers, no lectures needed.. I know, that I know, that I know in my own knower that my tude stinks big time..


And I know that people are watching, and looking to see just how I react. To be honest, if you look at the outside entire picture,.


I have nothing to be grumpy about. Life is good, we serve an amazing God; the kids are wonderful, we are healthy, and have money in the bank, surrounded with people that love us..


You see, but the problem comes when I have been growing in certain areas. Attending bible classes and attending this new series my pastor has been teaching. Or going away for a couple of days to see Joyce Meyer! I am thinking it was a bad idea to attend all three. Cause it is like a triple whammy.. Who knew that when you pray to God to show you the areas you need to improve in, that he would ACTUALLY show you!! And just when I have gotten over myself and realized what I have to do to change, I get hit with another thing.. Or how about when you think, that you FINALLY figured out what you are being called to do, and than you are told NOPE, that is not for you.. Sorry! Or when you question what your motives are when you serve, or when you are reaching out to help someone you love. Or when things are sent your way to tempt you, or take you off track. Why do we second guess ourselves.? Why do we even consider doing things, we know we are not supposed to do.


Well, DUH! That is just the enemy trying to sneak in those insecurities. He has come to kill, steal and destroy you! Of course he is not happy that we are doing so much to show love and to serve. That we are learning and growing in our Faith walk.


Don’t give him the satisfaction, and allow him to steal your joy.. Don’t quit! Don’t be tempted! You know right from wrong! Get help! Don’t try and do it alone!


You know what your passions are; God gave them to you for a reason!


Soooo, give me time.. I will get over myself, and turn my light back on, to shine and love once again..
After I get my Prozac refilled..

What is in your Heart??

Learning that we all have certain insecurities.

Dealing with those big fears, of being hurt, being rejected, just feeling like you belong.

Whether from your childhood, teen years, or now..

We try to hide, behind those walls that have been built over the years.

Pretending that we don’t realize they are really there.

But learning, that unless you deal with those evil demons and temptations in your life, that you will realize how many times they come and attack you at once.

How many opportunities are sent your way to distract you, and tempt you to make bad choices. Ohh the curiosity, the “what if’s”..  The thought of satisfying your desires may bring temporary satisfaction, but it won’t last long. We need to dig deeper, search harder for the real issue. Look into your heart, deal with the hurt and pain in there, ask God to show you how to heal.

Forgive yourself!

Quit thinking you can do it alone.

But, I Don't Wanna!

We seem to be in the middle of a new season in our lives.
Constantly on the go, but I am loving it.

I have mentioned in past blogs, the comfort of my bubble.
Over the last 5 years, I seem to have taken baby steps, and changed in some areas in my life. With my Bad attitude and a bad case of the "I Don't Wanna's!"
One area that I have always struggled with, is what “My True Gifting” were.. I must admit I had my doubts that I was given any true gifts to reach and minister to people. Being the big people pleaser that I am, kind of interferes with me NOT being a friendly people person. But, in the last 3 months, changes have started, and let me tell you. Ready or not, God is doing some amazing things in my life, and in the lives of the people around me.
I mentioned how I joined the Real Women Bible study group at my church. We are in week two, and Oh My Goodness, I am being blown away.! We are studying the Life of Jonah, and how he ran from God. When reading the book, and comparing it to my life. It is like a big slap in the face, of what I am dealing with right now in my life. It seems, I am going to have to deal with so much. Starting with the way I see myself, and my insecurities. Do you know, I struggle with accepting compliments? I mean seriously. How hard is it to just say “Thank You”?! When my sweet friends compliment me, I feel the need to put myself down. The look on their faces, always make me laugh. Makes me uncomfortable.
If only we could all see ourselves the way that God and other people see us. Yes, we are our biggest critic. And I think it is what distracts us, from finding the calling on our lives. Please know that those distractions are not from God. I encourage all my blog followers, to dig deep. What are the true desires of your heart? What are your true passions? They were given to you for a reason.

Believe in your self, and learn to take compliments with an open heart and gratitude. Take the time to also build others up around you. Tell people, what you admire in them. I have to admit, if it was not for my sweet friends that God has brought into my life, I would still be running, and I would not have come so far, and would still be clueless as to how God is using me and My True Gifting.

SO put your running shoes away. It is time..

Psalms 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord: and He will give you the desires of your heart…