Dearest 2020...

Dearest 2020.. 

Here we are 5 months into the year, and I am having mixed emotions about you..

But.. I won’t complain too much, because the good outweighs the bad for me and mine..

First of all I don’t like being told to stay home, but I have sucked it up and did it for a bit. We really miss church and our friends and my Prims Class. I cannot wait to be able to hug and see everyone in person again. 

But, we are doing our part to stay healthy and safe.

Atleast we got some things done around the house that we are pretty proud of.  Cleaning and clearing out things and building a nice patio to enjoy. Making the best of this situation.

I do feel bad for how many people were impacted with this Covid crap. Especially the Seniors in high school. Our close friends who have seniors are struggling with missing out on so much for their Seniors. My heart aches for them. Shout out to Sydney, Emma and Bazz, we are so proud of you all and pray many blessings over you and your future.

For us personally I have to give a big shout out to our Jazz. She was away at college living her best life in her cute little dorm with all her friends. Working as a pre- school teacher at her daycare. The mommy in me wanted to call her up and demand she come home right away, and trust me I almost did. The news had me a bit paranoid at first. But, I gave it to God. Just prayed protection over her and that she would have wisdom on what to do. Just 2 weeks in, I got the call that she felt it was time to come home. One week later after she was home, the college ended up going online and closing the dorms. As much as I LOVE having her home, I know how tough it was to move back home and do classes like Anatomy online. There were some tears, and a bit of anxiety but my baby girl finished her semester strong and on the Dean’s list again. We are so proud of her, but I know she is counting the days to when she can move back into her peaceful dorm surrounded by all her friends. To love on those little kids who love to facetime her and let her know how much they miss her., and how they are going peepee in the potty. 

And I am counting down to how many days before the ugly cry happens again. Because it just don’t get easier when the babe leaves her momma behind..

(insert big sigh here)

Trav and I are very thankful that our jobs were not impacted by Covid, I even had the privilege to work from home a couple days a week. Our Twin fellas also got to work from home and keep their jobs. We know how blessed we are for that, and we give God all the glory.

We are also excited that Our Ci announced that our family is growing. We will get to meet our newest little blessing in November, and if you know me you know I am giddy with excitement. Yall pray for our CI, she is going to have her hands full come November. But she is a great mommy, and we are so proud and excited for her little family. 

So in a matter of about 7 months, there will be a baby sprinkle, Jazzy moving back to college, my fellas moving into their new place, baby birth, and a big ole empty nest for us.

Have I mentioned how thankful we are for these two? They are our pride and joy, and we enjoy Friday Sleepovers each week. They melt this Nana Heart and they may know they can have whatever they want.. Loved not spoiled.. They make our soon to be empty nest more doable. Thank you to Ci and VJ for sharing with us. 

Here we are Living in The Blessing, please remind me of that when this momma heart is missing all my babies..

Mother's Day 

Thank You 2019...

2019 has been oh so good to me and mine..

So many have been posting on social media on how 2019 was not kind and how it broke them. 

And it makes my heart sad for them.

We have had some of those rough years, but we are thankful for a good year full of love, blessings and good things for our babies.

Trav and I both had a bit of a health scare, from the ugly c word, to maybe having a heart issue..

 but standing on our faith and having good doctors and praying family and friends we both have been cleared.🙌

If ya follow me on Facebook, than you already have heard plenty about 2019 being graduation season for us.

The twin fellas graduated from college and moved back home and started their great careers at wonderful companies. I am enjoying this time with them, family dinners and many game nights because this momma sure missed them while they were away. And I know it won’t be long before they buy their first homes. (no hurry guys)

Our baby graduated from high school and moved away to college and is continuing her education for her future career. And is loving the college life. She has made some great friendships and found a wonderful church. I Still Miss Her…

Our Oldest bought their first home and lives just 5 minutes away from us, where we get to see our grandbabies a lot! So thankful for this, as we love having them close.

Trav and I still have great  jobs, where we have an easy 20 min drive with no traffic and we don’t dread going to work each day. We love our bosses and co-workers and we know how blessed we are to have that.

My momma found a new dr who is helping treat her symptoms for her condition and I am thrilled to say she has been leaving the house more and has a smile on her face again. I have missed this. We enjoy my parents at church on Sunday mornings and lunch after.. Unfortunately there are still some bad days, but I am still believing that they go away.

Been thinking a lot about 2020.. 

I was asked what 2019 taught me, and I am excited to say I conquered a bit of a battle in my head.

 I have accepted that I have no control over how people act or treat me. I used to chase people and even when they treated me or mine like crap I would get offended than beg them or convince them that we are good people. I would react instead of respond. 

But I got tired.

Now, I have accepted that I can only control how I act and how I treat people in my life.

 I can only control the kind of wife, mom, Nana, daughter and friend that I am.

 I mean I am already an amazing wife, but I guess I could make a few adjustments..😜

I want to be the kind of Nana that I wanted my kiddos to have growing up. One that is heavily involved in my grandbabies lives. And I pray that my children become the kind of aunts and uncles that will be involved in each others lives. So far they are showing great signs of knocking that role out. 

I find myself praying more and more about the future spouses that my kids will marry one day. 

That they are kind, patient, strong, thoughtful, fun to be around and loving. That they love Jesus and will love my kiddo and their siblings. I pray that the relationship between me and them is good. I really desire that with all my being. I want to love them like they were my very own. 

I desire to be the kind of friend that I want to have. I have some sweet friends, and so thankful for them. I just hope that they know how much they mean to me.

Sooo 2020 is going to be more about my relationships. 

Healthy Relationships..

 I want to be a better me. 

Be more intentional about loving my people. 

And I encourage you to give yourself a good review. See where you want to change or need to make some adjustments. If you are continuing to find yourself in a rut or searching for answers, or feeling unfulfilled than I encourage you to find a good church home. I promise that it helps you deal with life. God will find a way to minister to your heart. To heal your hurts.. He will send the right people into your life. Because no one needs to do life alone. It’s just not healthy. Surround yourself with good people. People who will love you on the good and bad days. The kind who will drop everything and pray for you. The kind who encourage you and are bold enough to tell you when you are doing wrong. The kind who will check on you when they notice you have been quiet.. 

Life is just much more sweeter when you are doing it with good people in your corner.