Sowing and Reaping...

Just Sitting back,.Being very quiet,..
Watching Everyone and Everything around me has really given me a new insight on life.


Have to shamefully admit I have always been a fan of Karma, but I have to swallow my pride and admit that I am being given a big ole dose of Karma..

For years, I have been part of choosing sides and thinking I was better off if I just left certain people out of my life. Probably during times they were not doing things or living their life to what I thought was best. Have had blown up arguments over politics, religion, and what I thought someone really meant to say or do.
Walking around pointing my fingers and judging people, and making them feel like they were probably alone.

I am sure I have made God oh so proud… (sigh)

Oh my the tables have turned, and now it is my turn to be judged, and let me tell you it totally stinks and is heartbreaking.. But with time I have gotten over myself and quit throwing a woe is me party. And have spent the last couple of weeks feeling remorse for being such a big ole bitty to certain people in my life.

The crazy thing is there have been a handful of people who have stepped up and been there for me the last couple of months.. These people have every right to dislike me, because when the tables were turned, I was a horrible person to them, and I shut them out of my life. And I have told them, that I surely don’t deserve their friendship. But they have all said the same thing to me, yeah I did hurt them, but they know my true heart, and they remember what a devoted friend I was to them over all.

How about that.. People who concentrate and remember all the good, and who don’t focus on the bad.
If they only knew how much my heart needed to hear that.. Sowing and Reaping.. Karma..

This adventure and realitly of life has really given me the desire to be the light for people.
I want to shine for those who are going thru a dark time in their life.

For the people who are beat down, and have no hope, I want to be that email, or text or phone call that says, yeah your situation stinks big time, but you got this.

God is good, and he believes in restoring relationships, and lives.

His grace and mercy has saved me.. And I am thankful for the trials and judgment in life to make me realize that I had and have issues, but I am still precious and loved.

Most of all, that I deserve to be happy and to be surrounded by people who love me too..

So, LOVE!!! It should be simple.

Yet, we complicate everything. For example: we are not commanded to judge other people, gossip about them, tell everyone else what so-and-so ought to do about the problems we see in them, decide whether or not they are worthy for "certain" blessings or condemn them to a life of suffering and sorrow.

I'm so glad I don't have to make any final judgments about anyone. I just get to love them like crazy, for who they are now..

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
― Lao Tzu

“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.”
― Oprah Winfrey

P.S.
Happy 16th Anniversary to my Amazing and Loving Husband.. The man that has reminded me what Real, Faithful, Love really is..And how blessed I am that God sent him my way..


16th Anniversary in Oklahoma City



Guest Blogger..

Guest Blogger.. My Jazzy girl wrote this in Writing Class, and I figured how perfect to share for the month of November..


Ten Things I am Thankful For… By Jasmine

1. I am thankful for my parents. They are always there for me. They love me very much. Also, when I am sad they cheer me up. Last, but not least they gave me life..

 2. I am thankful for my cousins.

 When I am sad they know how to cheer me up! Also, they make funny noises when I get a boyfriend or I tell them who I like. My baby cousin is the cutest. I was there for his birth and he smiles when I hold him.

3. I am thankful for my teachers.
That is the most awkward thing to say. The reason why I said that is because they take time out of their day to teach us. Even when we can be not so respectful some days.!

4. I am thankful for brothers!
That is also hard to say. They can be over protective of me at some point. But, I still love them. They are always there for me. Plus they take up for me. Last but not least they make me smile.

5. I am thankful for my sister.
 That girl is one the best things in my life. She makes me smile and she loves me. Also, she is protective over me. Even though sometimes she is annoying, I could not live without her.

6. I am thankful for my granny.
My Granny is awesome. I love going shopping with her. I get to go to her house almost every other weekend. She has done a lot for me in my life. She is always there for me. I love her so much.
7. I am thankful for my grandpa.
He is the best grandpa ever. When I stay with them, he takes me to the flea market. It is awesome. Before we start looking at stuff we go get food. I get nachos with jalapeño’s and he gets fruit. We share them with each other. Also, we love to play with his dog.

8. I am thankful for my Great Grandma.
She is awesome and she has gone thru a lot. She lost her husband (my great grandpa) last year in December. Ever since then we have been able to get really close. Some days we go to eat together. I go to the doctor with her so she doesn’t go alone. She has taught me how to cook tortillas. And even though she lives with my granny now, I get to spend the night with her.

9. I am thankful for my Nanaw.
She is my dad’s mom and she is awesome. She lets me hang out with her some times.  I go with her to get her hair done. Plus, she also lost her husband. I was only 2 when he died. She always talks about him and I just listen. So my daddy and brothers and I get to help take care of her land. We mow and fix things when it breaks.

10. I am thankful for my life. I love my life. I have the best life. I have people who care for me and love me. I have a roof over my head. I have people to  love.. I have friends and
Last but certainly not least I have God in my life.



Just a Random Kind of Post...

I Apologize for such a Random Thought type of blog entry today..


First, I wanted to let everyone know that the Fellas did not make it to State Meet in Cross Country. They competed at Regional’s with 180 other fellas and against 24 other teams. And Aaron got 52nd place and the team got 8th place out of 24. I am still super proud of how well they finished and looking forward to next year to see how well they do.


Cross Country Team at Regional's

Second, I have to admit that the last 3 months I have been being a big ole pouting brat. I have been praying for God to help me in a certain area concerning some relationships. And over the last 3 months a few sweet ladies have reached out to me, invited me to lunch or dinner or to just talk or just a huge hug. And because it was not the ones I wanted them to be, I turned them down. (Not a proud moment of course) The other day I was listening to someone talk about the things they were struggling with, and I found myself relating to what she was feeling. Because it was not long ago that my family was enduring the same kind of thing. And I found myself enjoying her company, just talking, and listening and laughing. After I dropped her off I had a convo with God. I finally got a visual of what he was doing in my life, while I was too busy building that wall up around me, and questioning so many things, HE always knows what I need, and he always sends the right people my way. It is time for me to be confident in the person I am. To appreciate what and who I have NOW, and let go of all the rest.. Most of ALL, to know that God loves me and watches out for me, even when I take the bad roads in life from my horrible decisions.. He did not give up on me, he just waited for me to come to my senses and come running back to him. He embraced me in his wide open arms. I am ever so grateful for that..And thank you to those ladies who did reach out to me and minister love to me. It did not go un-noticed. 

Third, a certain fella taught me something over the last few months. About Faith.. He has a hat rack, and at the beginning of cross country season he removed all his hats from the rack, and he said that he was making room for all the medals he was going to win this year. At the end of the season his rack was full of medals. He stood strong on his Faith, and it paid off for him. I want to stand strong on my Faith and see many things come to pass in my life..I think we forget how amazing and loving the God we serve is,. Nothing is impossible for him, We just need to get out of the way, and let him do his thing..