What is in your Heart??

Learning that we all have certain insecurities.

Dealing with those big fears, of being hurt, being rejected, just feeling like you belong.

Whether from your childhood, teen years, or now..

We try to hide, behind those walls that have been built over the years.

Pretending that we don’t realize they are really there.

But learning, that unless you deal with those evil demons and temptations in your life, that you will realize how many times they come and attack you at once.

How many opportunities are sent your way to distract you, and tempt you to make bad choices. Ohh the curiosity, the “what if’s”..  The thought of satisfying your desires may bring temporary satisfaction, but it won’t last long. We need to dig deeper, search harder for the real issue. Look into your heart, deal with the hurt and pain in there, ask God to show you how to heal.

Forgive yourself!

Quit thinking you can do it alone.

But, I Don't Wanna!

We seem to be in the middle of a new season in our lives.
Constantly on the go, but I am loving it.

I have mentioned in past blogs, the comfort of my bubble.
Over the last 5 years, I seem to have taken baby steps, and changed in some areas in my life. With my Bad attitude and a bad case of the "I Don't Wanna's!"
One area that I have always struggled with, is what “My True Gifting” were.. I must admit I had my doubts that I was given any true gifts to reach and minister to people. Being the big people pleaser that I am, kind of interferes with me NOT being a friendly people person. But, in the last 3 months, changes have started, and let me tell you. Ready or not, God is doing some amazing things in my life, and in the lives of the people around me.
I mentioned how I joined the Real Women Bible study group at my church. We are in week two, and Oh My Goodness, I am being blown away.! We are studying the Life of Jonah, and how he ran from God. When reading the book, and comparing it to my life. It is like a big slap in the face, of what I am dealing with right now in my life. It seems, I am going to have to deal with so much. Starting with the way I see myself, and my insecurities. Do you know, I struggle with accepting compliments? I mean seriously. How hard is it to just say “Thank You”?! When my sweet friends compliment me, I feel the need to put myself down. The look on their faces, always make me laugh. Makes me uncomfortable.
If only we could all see ourselves the way that God and other people see us. Yes, we are our biggest critic. And I think it is what distracts us, from finding the calling on our lives. Please know that those distractions are not from God. I encourage all my blog followers, to dig deep. What are the true desires of your heart? What are your true passions? They were given to you for a reason.

Believe in your self, and learn to take compliments with an open heart and gratitude. Take the time to also build others up around you. Tell people, what you admire in them. I have to admit, if it was not for my sweet friends that God has brought into my life, I would still be running, and I would not have come so far, and would still be clueless as to how God is using me and My True Gifting.

SO put your running shoes away. It is time..

Psalms 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord: and He will give you the desires of your heart…

Silly Fellas..

Never a dull moment in our home. Especially when you have twin fellas who are out going, and love to play jokes and scare the crap out of each other. If you were to ever stop by our house, I can guarantee you will be made to laugh! After all LAUGHTER is it the best medicine for the soul.


So don’t be fuddy duds.
Don’t take life so serious!
Have fun, and learn to laugh at yourself!

Here is a good example!

The other night, Cameron made us dinner. He makes the best pancakes, and Jazz and I were not feeling well, so I asked him to cook.

He was starting to clean up, and he asked me if Aaron was still on “Dishes Duty” since he was grounded. And I said, yep he sure is. Well Cameron, thought it would be funny to rig the sprayer at the sink to get Aaron when he turned the water on. Well, My Cameron is my “special” child. He is super smart, but sometimes forgets important details. He has been told, he is not allowed to ever leave the house alone. Anyways… After he rigged the sprayer, 3 seconds later, he went to wash a bowl out, forgetting about the sprayer being rigged, and freaked out when the sprayer got him in the chest! Yep! We all got a good laugh. Again I say, never a dull moment in our home! 

My Fellas grew up to be handsome young men.



No More Excuses!!

Yep, that is what conclusion I have come to this week. I have mentioned that my family has been at the same church for almost 7 years this June.
 I may have mentioned my struggle with getting out of my “comfort zone” and meeting people.
I may have even mentioned that I found it hard to develop relationships there at church.
Of course I blamed it on everyone else but, me..
Because in my mind I felt people should come talk to me, you know, cause I am way more important!! Lol (Don’t judge, I am a work in progress..)
So, most of the ladies that I did know about, had this group called “Real Women” who met every Tuesday morning. I have to admit, when I heard about the fun stuff they did, and saw pictures of outings, I always felt that I just did not belong, because I had to work every day..
I struggled with this, and had many talks with God about why I had such a hard time fitting in. My excuse was cause of work, and them having it during the day..
So I convinced myself that I was just not “Real Women” material, and just went on with my bad attitude. Than of course new people came to our church, and I got more involved in stuff, and started feeling part of things. Started getting comfy being outside my bubble.

Than Guess what!

 I see that they are going to have Tuesday Evening classes for Real Women..

Next excuse was “Well, Trav works nights, so I still won’t be able to attend”.
Of course shortly after, Trav get’s day job, and guess which days he is off?? Yep Tuesday!
So, than I find out it is starting in February, and so now I think of a new excuse.
 “Ohh God, I would love to go, but I don’t know “those” women, and I am too scared to go alone”..
So, I mention this to some ladies, and I find out, the women that I do know are going to attend, AND two of my friends from Boyd want to join me..
Yep! I finally had to say OK GOD, I get it, no more excuses, I am going to “Real Women”!!
And so last night was the orientation, and Oh My! It was so much fun! There was not an opportunity to be shy, or worry about not fitting in. I met new people; I talked with people I have known for years.
We laughed, did a “speed dating” kind of thing to talk to 15 women for 2 minutes each.
We wore mustaches and glasses as we ran thru the church looking for clues..
It was wonderful, and I am so super excited about the next 10 wks!
 AND when I got home, Trav and my boys let me know how proud they are of me, for getting outside my bubble.

 It’s official people!

I am now a “Real Woman”..